A Message To All My Fellow Spiritual Warriors of Love: A note to take heed in difficult times

"Unreal love is another name for attachment, real love is very detachful" OsHo

(Tantra can be described as the Spiritual Warriors recognition of his/her ability to embrace love in a world that is constantly reacting out of fear)

Unreal love is compensatory. Real love is unconditional.
Unreal love seeks to be seen. Real love sees and therefore gives with compassion and pleasure, without expectation.
Without the healing of vision, real love does not manifest in form to its pure extent possible (with little or no fear).

Real love manifests in form when vision has been restored and fear has been replaced with the courage and the willingness of the Spiritual Warrior.

This is a process and an undoing.

Take heed.


Sometimes it is difficult to be real, unconditional love. There is sorrow and pain and discomfort. There is a lot of uncertainty in whether a person or people will love in return. There is still a great deal of fear.

In form, we all yearn to experience real love but many if not most of the world has been operating on a different variety of love called, emotional love. Emotional love is special love, as talked about in Course in Miracles; it is the kind of love we yearn for to get our emotional needs met, to hide our emotional wounds rather than uncover them so they heal. Emotional love is wounded love, in need of healing but in search of compromise and distractions. Real love, on the other hand, is transformational; it allows in love from the divine. The reason why so many people have not awakened to real love is because they have not fully allowed it in and because they have not yet experienced it in its purity through the body. For this reason, it is extra work, at times, to manifest real love within relationship and within ourselves. Any attempt at embodying real, unconditional love may feel difficult at times because it is, in fact, quite foreign to the body.


When one's restoration of sight is still in process, the heart is left tender oftentimes. It is vulnerable still to fear. The truth carries on in an open-hearted person because the person who stays open-hearted in love is manifesting more divine love to overcome the fear; however, much of this divine love is not yet fully received or acknowledged. Thus, the spiritual warrior struggles at times and even doubts whether she/he is even capable for the task. The fear can be paralyzing and so may leave the warrior in a rather short or long-term spiritual depression.

The fear can draw sickness and many kinds of death, all of which are for the disillusionment of the ego. The more disenchanted the ego, the more real love can manifest safely. The word "safely" is used because it is the death of fear and shame that creates sanity (love). It is the holding on of it that creates its opposite.

Thus, however, long the journey may seem, however difficult the ego may grasp, what is required is the letting go of the ego, the fear, the shame, the loneliness and even the depression.

To move further, from darkness to light, one must stay strong, committed and trust. They must be vigilant in their belief of an unconditional presence and love. Integrating light, to all degrees necessary, the advent of Truth allows peace and wisdom to shine through and heal the Warrior. It is through peace of mind and Love's eternal presence, felt through the body, that the Spiritual Warrior of Love is dependent and must remain open to. This presence is what gives the Warrior more courage to answer Love's call. This call is always moving the warrior toward wholeness/destiny.

Take heed.
Stay vigilant.
Be courageous to Love Self and Others.
Let go.
Trust.

THE GIFT OF SHAME

The gift of shame.

One would not think to realize that the gift of shame is great. Offering awareness of what has been hidden, the gift of shame offers us an opportunity to undo. To undo is to forgive; however many think that undoing is to be done with or complete.

To the contrary, undoing has little to do with how things look and more to do with the heart. Atonement, another word for undoing, is about clearing the air, the clouds of perception that block our ability to forgive and move forward. When we forgive that which shames us, when we forgive ourselves for the contribution that we make to the suffering of the world, we are more likely to make choices that are more holistic, unified and in the direction of love. In other words, it is learning how to forgive and love ourselves and each other unconditionally, that we are more apt to be citizens of change, trees that bear fruit and nourish the soil and our souls.

Acknowledging shame can be rather difficult for many and this is why is it a narrow road many do not think to travel. It is important to know that shame and fear are never absent within us but hidden in dark corners, which we choose to ignore oftentimes. For good reason, the shame we hide manifests as tendencies, habits and addictions.

Many do not realize (or consider) that their inability to confront shame is a result of many of their challenges, habits and addictions. A good reason, however, not to be blamed, is that we have not been brought up with the proper tools to alleviate the shame and fear that we all so desperately seek, albeit unconsciously.
While the gift of shame is an opportunity to build being- such as forgiveness, trust, faith, self-love, and compassion, many if not most of us were taught to focus rather on doing, manifesting, and creating.

A good question to ask in this case is, "Who is doing the creating?" Is it an ego that lives on fear and shame or an ego whose mind is directed toward God or Love? Some may contend that God is something to fear and that our shaming is our salvation from God. At the root of all of our undoing, lies this belief.

Thus, to become a creator of miracles, to become a bearer of light, purification is necessary and that purification lies not in shaming our shame or being perfect. Rather in acknowledging shame, we are offered an opportunity to forgive, to trust, and to build being.

It is in building being that we catalyze change.

Shining light on sexual repression: A return to Innocence

The innocent are on a different ground than that of the battlefield. The battlefield for many is full of contradiction, war and hate. Underneath it at the root is deeply embedded shame and fear passed on from generations. For the innocent however, the battleground is more like a playground. The playground might look the same as the battle ground to many; however the innocent are brought to higher heights of awareness that leaves them curious, tender and compassionate. Thus what looks to be a battleground is intermixed with opportunities that abound, flashes of light that those at war can not see.

The less pure of heart, clouded with shame and fear, therefore may look upon the innocent with shaming eyes. They do not want to leave their battleground and so keep fighting- suppressing and denying the true nature of their Source. Any realization to them that their battleground is nothing more than a playground, when they raise their awareness, leaves them ashamed and in fear, for why would they fight if this were true? Resentment fills the repressed, especially the sexually repressed. Resentment, anger and a lot of projection are full of the sexually repressed. They do not know what to do with their attacking thoughts and because society looks upon them with judging eyes, they sit on their anger and don't get up.

The sexually repressed do not budge until they are willing to heal, which entails a letting go of limiting beliefs. Until then, they sit and sit and sit with their limiting beliefs, stuffing what only gets bigger when they get up. The sexually repressed are never relaxed therefore. They are constantly doing things to make up for their discomfort and are consistently on guard and ready to fight.

When the innocent comes to greet them, they turn away very quickly. What they see in the innocent is themselves, but pure, sensual, and light. Feelings arise within seeing them much long forgotten.

When someone is pure of heart, we can no longer repress our anger, our shame and fear. When the innocent come forth, more light comes into the impure to be brought to awareness and healed. However, because so much has been repressed, the mind begins to fill even more with sex, shame and fear. This is the case for many individuals who are or have been sexually abused.

For healing to occur, the sexually repressed must be seen in us all. In shades of grey, to some degree, we all have denied and repressed the shame and fear of being a sexual and sensual being. For sexual repression does not just impact our limiting views and beliefs about sex, but even more, it impacts our relationship we have with ourselves about how much we can create, that is bring light, in the world. Sexual repression is seen is most facades of life as the polarity of belief in what it means to be a man and a woman, what it means to be in relationship and what it means to love. When we can love the shame and confront the fear, when we can integrate love into our shadowy thoughts, the light of the innocent, that is, the light of God, shines more fully in ourselves. It is in uncovering the layers of fear and shame, peeling back the old, that we can uncover what has always been- the purity of the soul.

In seeing the purity of our soul, we become powerful, courageous and full of light.

It is a process, an undoing, and a healing that we obtain the courage to love.

May we all be powerful, courageous and in love.

Emotional Sex and the Special Love Relationship

The thing about emotional sex is that it doesn't last long before the will desires something else. The will of a strong ego thrives on emotions and sex to it is like a tendency or habit that keeps it thirsty for more emotion- more thrill, more passion, more "specialness." The ego, because it has not learned how to meet its own needs, to see itself as the source of love, likes to delude itself in specialness from the outside. Sex is just one of many ways that the ego deludes itself to feel loved and while some sort of release may often be required for it to move forward from its loathing, it can't get enough until it learns that healing is required.

The healing that is required IS love, however Self-love is the true remedy. Self-love redeems, while emotional sex offers a temporary fix for the remedy. Many of our brothers and sisters do not move from this place of emotional sex, which is often requited of emotional love or the special relationship as written about in Course in Miracles.

The special relationship, emotional sex, and emotional love, often go hand-in-hand and all are because one has imagined needs, thoughts believed to bring end to suffering. The suffering, unbeknownst to many, comes from one root cause however; this suffering stems from the belief that we are separate from God.

Because the beliefs of separation and fear leave us oftentimes in negative, low-vibratory emotions, we see no way out, but through sex, habits and tendencies that we hide in ourselves and in each other. While there is in fact an unconditional force of love called the Universe, it is often not felt or experienced due to the low-vibratory emotions one emits. The seemingly "fixed" point of view that creates the emotion, leaves one unreceptive to the Unconditional Love of God that is present. This love is the true love that heals, while all else are quick-fixes to the remedy. Thus, until one becomes more aware of their emotions and begins to believe that they are holy loved and supported by the universe, the special love relationship and the emotional sex that comes with it will continue to proffer as substitutes.

Emotional sex and the special love relationship is neither "wrong" nor "right;" most of us benefit to some degree and we all eventually learn. However, emotional sex and the special love relationship can often be painful, beset with hidden agendas, unrealized expectations, guilt and shame. It is important to realize that there is, in fact, a way out of our suffering and this way out is through the unconditional love of Self and "other." While one may yearn to experience this love in the body through another body, one must oftentimes be the source of this love for its creation to be experienced. The meeting of a holy relationship, for which healing and Self-love are present, may seemingly take a long time, that the undoing of the special love relationship may seem like a trap. However, this is what it means to be on the "leading edge of thought." Built on faith alone, it means to become the source of love, directly connected to the Source itself, through our intention and commitment in bringing conscious love, that is Self-love to the world, often without evidence of return.

Emotions do not exclude a more conscious, self-loving relationship. Within a conscious love relationship, emotions offer and even enhance one's relationship to God. As opposed to the special love relationship, however, the conscious love relationship starts with Self-love. Because Self-love is present, it brings emotions of devotion and reverence, without shame or guilt, or giving-to-get. The conscious love relationship is a higher form of love, with the intention to bring unconditional love to it; sex, is one expression of this reverence.

As opposed to the blame, shame and disrespect that may form through emotional sex and the need to feel special, conscious love relationships brings emotions that are purely loving and with a loving intent. The fear behind not getting is an indication of the special love relationship.

While the special love relationship and emotional sex is mostly a thing we are born into, perpetuating itself through limiting beliefs and thoughts, the faith to move forward is the willingness to transform each special love relationship into a holy one. This means to remove fear from relationship, to take responsibility for and learn how to communicate pain without blame or shame. As sourced in Course in Miracles,

"The Holy Spirit knows no one is special. Yet He also perceived that you have made special relationships, which He would purify and not let you destroy. However unholy the reason you made them may be, He can translate them into holiness by removing as much fear as you let Him."

Thus, let us not make wrong or bad the longing for passionate and emotional sex, but see it for what it is: oftentimes, a need to feel loved and special. Let us integrate within ourselves Self-love and healing and raise each other up from our negative emotions to see the light of day.

May all desire and need to feel special be transformed into a more intimate relationship within ourselves, a conscious love.
May we transform all special, love relationships, giving to get, into pure love, giving as receiving.
May we have the integrity not to make guilty but see things for what they are.
May all special love relationships become holy, marked with respect and reverence for ourselves and each other.

Holding the seat of love: a process to Healing

"Disturb the comforted and comfort the disturbed" John McMullin, Journeys of Wisdom

For one to move forward in life, one must have the capacity to learn how to be comfortable in the uncomfortable; that is, to "disturb the comforted and to comfort the disturbed."

To disturb the comforted is what many people avoid. On the other hand, many other people do it at the cost of love, through blaming, shaming, judging and with closed hearts. To disturb the comforted is to integrate possibilities where one sees none. It is to confront ego attachments to being right, justified, and perhaps superior. Also, it is confronting manipulations, hidden agendas, and the excuses we make to hide our wounds.

The root of the problem is most often underneath our words, hiding in shame and fear, not to be disrupted or brought to the surface. If brought to the surface, anger is revealed; however, often, the anger is projected onto other people. One's anger may be the victim, "poor me" mentality, while another's anger may be more aggressive or passive-aggressive.

To be able to disturb the comforted, one must be firm within oneself that what they are confronting is not the Truth. Perhaps what is confronted is a relative truth that either inhibits or impedes there spiritual growth, and perhaps what is being confronted is not true at all. One must assume that they do not know, but be willing to confront what comes up as a possibility. Then, one must be strengthened enough to not take the defended ego personally. It is common, for one to be defended and take personally what is being confronted. To hold the seat of love through not reacting but being with can be the most healing part of the process.

Thus, when one considers the possibilities, more healing can be integrated. Until then, the tendency will be to scratch the surface, without any depth of feeling to emerge. This is likely to be the time when One's needs are more in learning tools to integrate how to self-love. To confront ego-attachments, hidden agendas, excuses, and ultimately, the beliefs we failed to feel, one must have a strong enough capacity to integrate love.

The process of healing is rooted is an ability to integrate love and confront ego-attachments, the obstacles to a deeper love.

Spiritual Evolution: between Judgement and Discernment

While "Judge not, that ye be judged..." (Mat 7:1) can be considered a sacred law, the interpretation of it may not be realized by many, for what is the difference between judgment and discernment? While judgement leads to fear, perpetuating illusions of separation, shame and guilt, one's discernment leads them to Truth; compassion, wisdom,and greater awareness of Self (realization).

To judge someone essentially is to miss the mark, to not see the True self, the Awakened One within the sleepless, crying child's wound reality of fear and separation. Most of the time, this wound is mirrored outside ourselves and yet, reflect to us our own internal beliefs, such as that we are guilty, bad, and unworthy. We internalized many beliefs when we were children and perpetuated them throughout life, through our judgments of "others" and inability to see ourselves clearly.


Perhaps we can say that to judge is to make guilty and real what it is we see with our two eyes, all that which there is to be ashamed and fearful of. By judging, we perpetuate illusions, feeding beliefs in fear and separation, forgetting the Truth within us. We suffer from the illusions of the world and yet we multiply them, by reacting in defense. "Judge not, that ye be judged," is a sacred law in that when we strive in life to withhold judgment, to see Love or Truth despite evidence, we realize more quickly and heal. To judge, on the other hand, is to perpetuate a horizontal view of reality in which fear and separation is the main view of life. To withhold judgment is to move vertically, closer to Heaven, toward greater peace, wisdom, and Oneness.

Discernment leads to salvation, but can be perceived as judgment oftentimes. This can cause us to doubt and shame ourselves and therefore, judge our choices. "What is love/Truth?" the spiritual warrior may ask at any given time, when faced with the challenge to choose. When faced with challenges and circumstances, the weight of discernment may feel judgmental and visa versa; it can leave one stuck in fear and another one doubting the choices they made.

True discernment is not based on judgment but on One's commitment to a greater Love. First, it is useful to realize that life is always leading us to learn. In everything, there are ALWAYS lessons that will help us to grow and mature and thus evolve spiritually. When we use discernment, we make choices, knowing that there really is no wrong choice, person, place or thing for which to separate ourselves from; every choice can help us to see clearly the Love inside the clouds of illusions that we perpetuate. A discerning mind is a state of mind that is filled with Love and compassion, yet choices to be made about which will lead us closer to our evolutionary potential. The discerning mind is one that is contemplative and directed toward Truth.

Discernment leads to Truth because it isn't that we make the "right" choices but that we follow our hearts and acknowledge the lessons along the way. In life, there are unavoidable lessons, which we all must go through; in order to realize Truth, we must, at least eventually, look at every experience as an opportunity to grow and learn. Thus, at any given time, upon making choices, we learn to look and be grateful for the opportunity which leads to growth and Oneness. Discernment helps us to realize the Truth within ourselves because our attention is primarily on making sure we see Love and making choices based on what we believe will bring us closer to it.

A discerning mind can be automatic, intuitive, and direct. At the same time, discernment may take weighting, looking at costs and benefits and tapping into deeper reserves of feeling. Ultimately, discernment leads us to Truth/salvation because we are making decisions based on our relative truth, the truth about how we think, feel, and honor ourselves.


When we trust ourselves, we are more open to the divine intelligence that speaks through and to us. While all choices may be perceived as consequential on some level, self-development and discovery comes when we trust; we commit to look inside long enough to listen, to find Truth: peace, understanding, and perspective.

A discerning mind confronts, acknowledges, makes requests, and ask questions based on the feelings and thoughts that come from the heart. A judging mind, on the other hand, assumes, expects, blames and shames for failing to understand. The discerning mind may confront in a way that the ego does not like, but its intent is not to judge or reject, however to set boundaries and honor their own evolutionary capacity to listen and honor themselves.

To discern is to make choices based on honoring one's capacity to embody the consciousness of love. The ego judges discernment as attack, however, and often fails to listen. The ego does not want to look at itself as the source of its judgment, but wishes to project it onto "others" who are really just listening and honoring their personal truth, as they see in the moment. The judging mind reacts to the discerning mind because it is wounded.

Thus, while judgment multiplies illusions, discernment leads to Truth. For one attacks and defends and the other does not. One makes guilty and ashamed, while the other sees Truth and moves closer to the vibrational frequency that matches that Truth. The discerning mind makes choices based on its commitment to a greater love and thus, travels vertically rather than horizontally. The ego-ic, judging mind makes wrong and attacks choices, while the discerning mind makes choices and then moves on.

To heal, one must become aware of how much they judge and how much this judgment leads them to Oneness, which is Truth. To become aware, one must have the courage to look at where in their life they resist seeing themselves, where it is they blame and what it is they shame (perhaps with a spiritual teacher, healer, or guide to help at first)... In looking at these things, one has the opportunity to realign with Truth and to discern their choices, however, with love still present. This is at least one way spiritual healing begins.

The primary difference between judgement and discernment is that One's focus is on Truth, seeing Love, and the other is not. To focus on Truth/Oneness/Love in the face of choices, and to discern, rather than judge, is healing and takes first our commitment. This supports our evolutionary development into the new Age of Aquarius.






















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Perspective: when adversity shows up.

When there is adversity outside, it is really a reflection of the adversity inside. The mirror in which seeing causes chaos is when one is unwilling to look at the lack of seeing herself in "others" and/or seeing from a further range of perspective, that she create her own self-adversity.

Oftentimes, the adversity opposes you because you oppose yourself and until you start to believe in yourself, the adversity wreaks havoc on your state of mind.
There will be people in your life to reflect where healing is called for and they will come and go as people who doubt, deny, and even react to the gifts which you bestow. They may come at different times and take many forms. Oftentimes, we reject seeing ourselves and what there is to learn; we fight, we run away, we make wrong because we don't want to feel the pain. However, the pain we must feel in order to move on, to realize there not true.

If we skip the pain, we often end up angry and resentful, judging and punitive. The truth of the matter is never at the surface, always deeper and harder to grasp. To believe that the adversity comes from your own self can be difficult to understand indeed. However, feel the pain, surrender, let go, and replace these difficult thoughts with thoughts of Truth and love. Keep your heart open and commit to see yourself within all. Then, you will see your "adversities" will be tackled and you will even realize them to have been necessary to your growth.

Does it mean there will not be people who resist what you offer? It does not; for big lights cast greater shadows and resistance to your light will surely occur. At the same time, the "adversity" once thought will no longer wreak such a havoc, as your confidence and courage grow to mean little in the face of adversity.

Love the wounded child? Yes, but even more, love the Truth and see that Truth in you as a gift and a light, with truly something worthy of being offered to. When you embrace your gifts with confidence, you will see that the adversity does not come without bigger lights to support you.