A new day comes and still there are lessons: circumstances and challenges; illusion to continuously detach myself from while remaining in the heart of the holy, so as not to confuse the body and focus on it at the cost of love.
To confuse the body as real and spiritual awakening as not, would be to perceive the untrue and create more illusion from which we are to awaken from. Therefore, the cleansing of the mind is necessary and the body, which acts as a vehicle is secondary to its healing...
Pay attention to the signs and the visions coming through the body, for the body is a vehicle and also is a messenger for how to act. The cleaner our perception, the more healed is the mind, and the clearer the message therefore.
Trust in your visions of light
We need not be validated by outside for what is the healing of our own mind. For whatever vision comes, call it in and let this vision be a guiding light. A messenger that comes, which comes in many forms, and so we know it to be true that when an angel from heaven appears, we can trust that it is so.
They may move us to tears,if we let them, cleansing our soul of the lies in which we were taught but aren't real. They heal our perception of what is true and not true.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
A message from above: when 2 egos collide
A MESSAGE FROM ABOVE-WHEN TWO EGOS COLLIDE.
WHEN TWO STRONG EGOS COLLIDE OVER ONE, IT IS DIFFICULT TO CONVINCE THAT THE LAW OF LOVE IS THE SALVATION FOR WHICH THEY YEARN.
THEREFORE IT IS ONLY IS BEING LOVE, THAT IS THROUGH PRESENCE, CAN ONE INSPIRE ANOTHER TO AWAKEN DESPITE THE EGO’S CALL.
LOVE INDEED IS WHAT TRANSFORMS AND IS NEEDED FOR ANOTHER TO EXPERIENCE IN CRISIS.
FOR WHOSE LIGHT IS TOO DIM TO SEE, HOWEVER, THE EGO TAKES OVER AND CONVINCES THEM THAT LIGHT DOES NOT EXIST.AND THEREFORE THEY DO NOT HEAR NOR ANSWER.
TAKE HEED AND DO NOT LOSE ENERGY OVER WHAT IS NOT THERE BUT THE LOVE YOU CHOOSE TO SEE AND KNOW IS THERE. TAKE HEED AND DO NOT LOSE FAITH THAT THE ENERGY OF LOVE IS HEALING AND THAT OF FEAR IS NOT. WATCH WHEN YOU ARE AFRAID AND BE CAREFUL NOT TO REACT; FEAR ONLY CREATES MORE FEAR AND IT DOES NO GOOD FOR ONE IN CRISIS. TAKE HEED TO LOVE SELF SO THAT WHEN AWAKENING IS POSSIBLE, YOU ARE PRESENT TO SEE IT EXIST.. LET GO OF WHAT YOU THINK SHOULD BE YOUR RESPONSIBILITY AND MAKE YOURSELF NOT AT FAULT; IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY ONLY TO LOVE..
WHEN TWO STRONG EGOS COLLIDE OVER ONE, IT IS DIFFICULT TO CONVINCE THAT THE LAW OF LOVE IS THE SALVATION FOR WHICH THEY YEARN.
THEREFORE IT IS ONLY IS BEING LOVE, THAT IS THROUGH PRESENCE, CAN ONE INSPIRE ANOTHER TO AWAKEN DESPITE THE EGO’S CALL.
LOVE INDEED IS WHAT TRANSFORMS AND IS NEEDED FOR ANOTHER TO EXPERIENCE IN CRISIS.
FOR WHOSE LIGHT IS TOO DIM TO SEE, HOWEVER, THE EGO TAKES OVER AND CONVINCES THEM THAT LIGHT DOES NOT EXIST.AND THEREFORE THEY DO NOT HEAR NOR ANSWER.
TAKE HEED AND DO NOT LOSE ENERGY OVER WHAT IS NOT THERE BUT THE LOVE YOU CHOOSE TO SEE AND KNOW IS THERE. TAKE HEED AND DO NOT LOSE FAITH THAT THE ENERGY OF LOVE IS HEALING AND THAT OF FEAR IS NOT. WATCH WHEN YOU ARE AFRAID AND BE CAREFUL NOT TO REACT; FEAR ONLY CREATES MORE FEAR AND IT DOES NO GOOD FOR ONE IN CRISIS. TAKE HEED TO LOVE SELF SO THAT WHEN AWAKENING IS POSSIBLE, YOU ARE PRESENT TO SEE IT EXIST.. LET GO OF WHAT YOU THINK SHOULD BE YOUR RESPONSIBILITY AND MAKE YOURSELF NOT AT FAULT; IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY ONLY TO LOVE..
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
the obstacles at love
The only law we really need concern ourselves with is the law of love. Everything we do that is loving, with a loving intent, aligns with natural law and this love is rewarded to us in many forms and expressions. SOmetimes it does seem to be the case, as loving sometimes feels like pain for having done so. Fear, guilt and shame are our obstacles to love. An ego that is not aligned with love, feels bad and thinks it undeserving to receive love, so it sabbotages all attempts at giving and receiving love. This is why to be love is sometimes painful.
To align with the natural law of love is to embody it regardless of the circumstance and this can be very difficult. When someone is yelling at us, often we want to yell back. "Stop yelling at me! It's not me, it's you!" We project our own guilt and shame by making "other" wrong because we fear of the pain for having hurt someone else's feelings; we don't want to experience their judgment as it would make it more difficult for us to love ourselves.
When I withhold projecting my own guilt and shame, I get to experience the fear inside of me. I get to see that it is not them, but it is me, responsible for how I perceive what is coming at me. When I withdrawl projecting guilt and shame, I can see that I am afraid and I can also see that the person that is yelling at me is afraid too. Sometimes I need space to calm myself, to love myself, because when I am afraid, I am simply not loving myself. I can not love the person yelling at me if I am not loving myself, and if I am not feeling the pain that I caused myself or "other," I can not love myself or other. So sometimes, I need space to love myself and to calm myself so that I can see clearly. This requires patience.
We want to be aware of the fear, guilt and shame inside of ourselves because only then can we realize that it is in not loving ourselves that is the greatest obstacle to love.
To align with the natural law of love is to embody it regardless of the circumstance and this can be very difficult. When someone is yelling at us, often we want to yell back. "Stop yelling at me! It's not me, it's you!" We project our own guilt and shame by making "other" wrong because we fear of the pain for having hurt someone else's feelings; we don't want to experience their judgment as it would make it more difficult for us to love ourselves.
When I withhold projecting my own guilt and shame, I get to experience the fear inside of me. I get to see that it is not them, but it is me, responsible for how I perceive what is coming at me. When I withdrawl projecting guilt and shame, I can see that I am afraid and I can also see that the person that is yelling at me is afraid too. Sometimes I need space to calm myself, to love myself, because when I am afraid, I am simply not loving myself. I can not love the person yelling at me if I am not loving myself, and if I am not feeling the pain that I caused myself or "other," I can not love myself or other. So sometimes, I need space to love myself and to calm myself so that I can see clearly. This requires patience.
We want to be aware of the fear, guilt and shame inside of ourselves because only then can we realize that it is in not loving ourselves that is the greatest obstacle to love.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Taking without asking
I now have a problem, another opportunity to stretch and see. I am faced with the projection of taking without asking. On one end, the mind of God has compassion and understands completely. On the other hand, my ego-ic self wants to withdrawl, justify, and defend. While I want to lash out in judgment, the mind of God says “Hold on!”
How does it feel?
I feel angry, sad, and disrespected. Quickly, the anger turns to sadness. At the same time, I understand; I am not too sad. I feel compassionate and vulnerable.
In my body, the pain resides in my heart. I feel vulnerable there because I want to keep it open.
So then I ask, how is this person a reflection of me and what do I have to learn?
Well certainly, I have done the same thing. In fact, when I feel that energy is being “taken” from me, I feel justified to take back. I am not committed to this cyclical defense however, because it only feeds guilt for me, I realize.
It is possibly the case that for some reason, this person feels justified to take from me. Perhaps I should be grateful? Yes. I am grateful. Yet, we have communicated agreements and this one is not being respected.
Are there any agreements that I am not respecting? I suppose the only thing I can do is ask and stay in communication because I do not believe that there are agreements that I am not respecting.
The Course in Miracles wisdom would say that it is a cry for love...
If it is a cry for love, there is something this person may be afraid of. This person may feel resentful and feeling alone. When I am crying for love, I am afraid. Usually, I am feeling alone.
Also, when I take from someone, I am afraid to ask. I am afraid to ask because I am ashamed to ask. Because I am ashamed to ask, I don’t and so I take and then I justify why I am right for doing so. When I justify why I am right because I take, I am really hiding my guilt. While this is going on, I am not present.
And so the cycle goes. However, when I am ashamed, I have the opportunity to communicate my shame or I swallow it...
When I communicate my shame, I usually feel better. However, in the past, I have also been shamed even more. For this reason, I sometimes choose not to communicate my shame.
Every moment is an opportunity to be honest, to come clean with my shame and guilt.
Every moment is an opportunity to right my relationship with God.
Every moment is an opportunity to communicate love, rather than fear.
If I am honest and communicate my shame, I am free.
When I continue to hide my shame, I am less free because I am not present to God.
What am I committed to?
I am committed to love and awakening. I am committed to God. Therefore, I see the only thing to do is communicate. While it is always scary, if I communicate, I am in right relationship with God and I can be happy about that, even when the person I am communicating with, might be defended.
This is a reminder not to shame when one is being honest, but to hold space and to offer an opportunity for One to awaken to God’s love. Even when the mistake keeps being made, be courageous to communicate lovingly.
Be open to making new agreements.
As Terces and Matthew Engelhart, the owners of Cafe Gratitude, would share- the 8 superpowers of community are:
1)Make a request
2)Acknowledge
3)Apologize.
4)Hold the seat of love in the storm of separation
5)Generate the will
6)Have integrity
7)Be transparent
8)Check-in
How does it feel?
I feel angry, sad, and disrespected. Quickly, the anger turns to sadness. At the same time, I understand; I am not too sad. I feel compassionate and vulnerable.
In my body, the pain resides in my heart. I feel vulnerable there because I want to keep it open.
So then I ask, how is this person a reflection of me and what do I have to learn?
Well certainly, I have done the same thing. In fact, when I feel that energy is being “taken” from me, I feel justified to take back. I am not committed to this cyclical defense however, because it only feeds guilt for me, I realize.
It is possibly the case that for some reason, this person feels justified to take from me. Perhaps I should be grateful? Yes. I am grateful. Yet, we have communicated agreements and this one is not being respected.
Are there any agreements that I am not respecting? I suppose the only thing I can do is ask and stay in communication because I do not believe that there are agreements that I am not respecting.
The Course in Miracles wisdom would say that it is a cry for love...
If it is a cry for love, there is something this person may be afraid of. This person may feel resentful and feeling alone. When I am crying for love, I am afraid. Usually, I am feeling alone.
Also, when I take from someone, I am afraid to ask. I am afraid to ask because I am ashamed to ask. Because I am ashamed to ask, I don’t and so I take and then I justify why I am right for doing so. When I justify why I am right because I take, I am really hiding my guilt. While this is going on, I am not present.
And so the cycle goes. However, when I am ashamed, I have the opportunity to communicate my shame or I swallow it...
When I communicate my shame, I usually feel better. However, in the past, I have also been shamed even more. For this reason, I sometimes choose not to communicate my shame.
Every moment is an opportunity to be honest, to come clean with my shame and guilt.
Every moment is an opportunity to right my relationship with God.
Every moment is an opportunity to communicate love, rather than fear.
If I am honest and communicate my shame, I am free.
When I continue to hide my shame, I am less free because I am not present to God.
What am I committed to?
I am committed to love and awakening. I am committed to God. Therefore, I see the only thing to do is communicate. While it is always scary, if I communicate, I am in right relationship with God and I can be happy about that, even when the person I am communicating with, might be defended.
This is a reminder not to shame when one is being honest, but to hold space and to offer an opportunity for One to awaken to God’s love. Even when the mistake keeps being made, be courageous to communicate lovingly.
Be open to making new agreements.
As Terces and Matthew Engelhart, the owners of Cafe Gratitude, would share- the 8 superpowers of community are:
1)Make a request
2)Acknowledge
3)Apologize.
4)Hold the seat of love in the storm of separation
5)Generate the will
6)Have integrity
7)Be transparent
8)Check-in
Monday, December 5, 2011
Blocked by comparison
Is it not the case that when one is in a group of people with whom they admire and find inspiring, they often compare themselves against what they are not. Too often it is so that when one is in such admiration, they forget to see the mirror that they are in themselves and so choose the disempowering story, the dream of who they are not instead. This is a consequence of having not looked inside long enough to see and love the wounded child, all of that which prevented us from seeing the love that "I AM" in the first place.
When we look outside and start comparing what we admire to ourselves, we become disempowered, forgetting that we all have a gift. When we look inside, we develop our gifts. When we look outside, we give them away. No expression in the universe can match the creative expression of God inside ourselves. Because we look outside in comparison, we prevent ourselves from seeing this inner light and so we diminish it as a consequence. Doubt ensues and we forget; we become unconscious.
Therefore, be aware. For to compare renders the ego as driver, often in defense, out to diminish oneself or "other." When all there is to see is the mirror we fail to see in ourselves, we give our power away when we start to judge.
Look inside for the wounded child that did not feel acknowledged and loved at a time when she needed. Look inside for the fear; as it is fear you must feel and let pass. Trust and have faith in the unique expression that is you and bless the mirrors that you see, for they represent the beauty and the wonder of the world, as do you. Be grateful that you see them and give them what they need. Give them your love and kind words. Look at the mirror of what they represent inside of you and take it as a sign that you too are on a unique path, with a special function that is yours, which God gave for you to fulfill.
Stop comparing and keep moving forward for to stay outside is to diminish your gifts and render them "useless." To feel useless is to see a world that is "less than" and to keep them there in fear and out of truth. This is the suffering of the world for when we diminish our creative aspirations, our gifts, it is difficult to be present; we can not serve "others" when we are not loving ourselves. To move forward, in the direction of our creative aspiration, is to love and therefore see it and be it in the world.
This is the greatest gift we could give.
When we look outside and start comparing what we admire to ourselves, we become disempowered, forgetting that we all have a gift. When we look inside, we develop our gifts. When we look outside, we give them away. No expression in the universe can match the creative expression of God inside ourselves. Because we look outside in comparison, we prevent ourselves from seeing this inner light and so we diminish it as a consequence. Doubt ensues and we forget; we become unconscious.
Therefore, be aware. For to compare renders the ego as driver, often in defense, out to diminish oneself or "other." When all there is to see is the mirror we fail to see in ourselves, we give our power away when we start to judge.
Look inside for the wounded child that did not feel acknowledged and loved at a time when she needed. Look inside for the fear; as it is fear you must feel and let pass. Trust and have faith in the unique expression that is you and bless the mirrors that you see, for they represent the beauty and the wonder of the world, as do you. Be grateful that you see them and give them what they need. Give them your love and kind words. Look at the mirror of what they represent inside of you and take it as a sign that you too are on a unique path, with a special function that is yours, which God gave for you to fulfill.
Stop comparing and keep moving forward for to stay outside is to diminish your gifts and render them "useless." To feel useless is to see a world that is "less than" and to keep them there in fear and out of truth. This is the suffering of the world for when we diminish our creative aspirations, our gifts, it is difficult to be present; we can not serve "others" when we are not loving ourselves. To move forward, in the direction of our creative aspiration, is to love and therefore see it and be it in the world.
This is the greatest gift we could give.
Friday, December 2, 2011
Because I know.- a poem
Because I know...
When you cut me off, I want to curse at you and make you wrong.
And because I know, I do not react so callously.
Because I know, I get to see myself more in everything.
Sometimes, oh Lord, sometimes, my thoughts have a mind of its own and
it hurts me like a backlash..
And it feeds me guilt, shame and fear.
telling what is "wrong"
And because I know,
It is easier to hear your voice to my rescue.
That gentle, loving voice.
Offering perspective. wisdom.
Patience.
Because this brings me peace
I know
and I do not blame you.
Because I know,
when I am held in judgement and all I hear are lies about you
I can let go and I can hold space.
Because I know.
Because I know
when I make a mistake
And I do not listen to you out of fear...
I can forgive myself and move on more quickly
Because I know...
Because I know
I sometimes want to cry in ecstasy
that you love me unconditionally
and I am free to know
When I am withholding love,
I just need to love myself
as you would have me know...
Because I know.
I am grateful.
Because I know.
When you cut me off, I want to curse at you and make you wrong.
And because I know, I do not react so callously.
Because I know, I get to see myself more in everything.
Sometimes, oh Lord, sometimes, my thoughts have a mind of its own and
it hurts me like a backlash..
And it feeds me guilt, shame and fear.
telling what is "wrong"
And because I know,
It is easier to hear your voice to my rescue.
That gentle, loving voice.
Offering perspective. wisdom.
Patience.
Because this brings me peace
I know
and I do not blame you.
Because I know,
when I am held in judgement and all I hear are lies about you
I can let go and I can hold space.
Because I know.
Because I know
when I make a mistake
And I do not listen to you out of fear...
I can forgive myself and move on more quickly
Because I know...
Because I know
I sometimes want to cry in ecstasy
that you love me unconditionally
and I am free to know
When I am withholding love,
I just need to love myself
as you would have me know...
Because I know.
I am grateful.
Because I know.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Jesus teachings on the 8 attitudes to follow.
The 8 Attitudes, taught be Jesus, interpreted by myself...
-Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Be grateful always. Share and give in trust, for I Am always provided for. To be poor in spirit is to manage and invest in resources wisely and not to hold on too tightly to any ideas, resources or people. A poor man of spirit gives what he cans, the means often are creative and from the heart...
-Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
We often fall for the dream of illusion and fear over the unity of oneness and love. When we feel guilty, ashamed and afraid, we act in ways that are not aligned with natural law and this feeds more guilt, shame and fear. To mourn is to acknowledge this in humility to God; for when we forgive ourselves, the light of God enters.
-Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are the simple-minded, who strive for simplicity, peace and harmony with nature, with natural law. They will be blessed with abundance and resources. Those who call and respect the earth, whom do not hoard but generously share wisdom and love will be living examples of the second coming of heaven on earth.
-Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
They shall be blessed with wisdom and a great deal of gifts that will help them fulfill their divine purpose. They who seek to know the laws and align with them will be guided because they are open and focused on knowing themselves.
-Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
When we forgive and accept one another, we free the parts of ourselves that are frozen and full of judgment, shame, guilt and fear.
-Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
When we are honest with ourselves and another, and when we work to heal our past through forgiving and accepting, we become more pure of heart. When we are aware and choose oneness over reacting out of guilt, shame and fear, it releases burdens, which makes it easier to be present. This makes it easier to see Essence, the divine nature in all beings.
-Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
God is peaceful and seeks refuge in those that match its energy. God is attracted to those that strive for unconditional love.
-Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Those that strive toward unconditional love face challenges/resistance from many sides. Rigid beliefs and God-fearing "others" oppose those that believe in the ability to be One with God, to stand for justice and peace in the face of persecution, guilt, shame and fear. Bless them for their courage inspires people.
-Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Be grateful always. Share and give in trust, for I Am always provided for. To be poor in spirit is to manage and invest in resources wisely and not to hold on too tightly to any ideas, resources or people. A poor man of spirit gives what he cans, the means often are creative and from the heart...
-Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
We often fall for the dream of illusion and fear over the unity of oneness and love. When we feel guilty, ashamed and afraid, we act in ways that are not aligned with natural law and this feeds more guilt, shame and fear. To mourn is to acknowledge this in humility to God; for when we forgive ourselves, the light of God enters.
-Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are the simple-minded, who strive for simplicity, peace and harmony with nature, with natural law. They will be blessed with abundance and resources. Those who call and respect the earth, whom do not hoard but generously share wisdom and love will be living examples of the second coming of heaven on earth.
-Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
They shall be blessed with wisdom and a great deal of gifts that will help them fulfill their divine purpose. They who seek to know the laws and align with them will be guided because they are open and focused on knowing themselves.
-Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
When we forgive and accept one another, we free the parts of ourselves that are frozen and full of judgment, shame, guilt and fear.
-Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
When we are honest with ourselves and another, and when we work to heal our past through forgiving and accepting, we become more pure of heart. When we are aware and choose oneness over reacting out of guilt, shame and fear, it releases burdens, which makes it easier to be present. This makes it easier to see Essence, the divine nature in all beings.
-Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
God is peaceful and seeks refuge in those that match its energy. God is attracted to those that strive for unconditional love.
-Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Those that strive toward unconditional love face challenges/resistance from many sides. Rigid beliefs and God-fearing "others" oppose those that believe in the ability to be One with God, to stand for justice and peace in the face of persecution, guilt, shame and fear. Bless them for their courage inspires people.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Channeling "my" higher self
You need not fear the ego, but forgive its sometimes relentless, pitiful and justified ways. Your forgiveness tells me you are trying and for that you can love yourself for.
Habits, tendencies, and life lessons can be a challenge. To become self-realized meaning to know and act from the true self is a surmountable and courageous act, living in a dream that often feeds illusion, separation and fear, over oneness and love. Challenging it may be that doubt ensues within every spiritual warrior; as is remember- "the greatest battle with the spiritual warrior is the self" and that it doesn't just disappear. You just become more aware and so with this doubt, you must feel it and take responsibility for your part, as it is with you and you must separate from it so that it does not become you.
Do not fall back asleep to the dream; you need not suffer no more. Stay true to yourself, for your convictions are real and can help people.
You doubt because still there is fear of completely letting go. You must let go for you will grow in it and you will see more clearly.
You doubt your tasks and what I tell you but trust what you do, as it will help regardless. Where you see fault, learn and grow to do otherwise but trust too that your presence is enough.
Habits, tendencies, and life lessons can be a challenge. To become self-realized meaning to know and act from the true self is a surmountable and courageous act, living in a dream that often feeds illusion, separation and fear, over oneness and love. Challenging it may be that doubt ensues within every spiritual warrior; as is remember- "the greatest battle with the spiritual warrior is the self" and that it doesn't just disappear. You just become more aware and so with this doubt, you must feel it and take responsibility for your part, as it is with you and you must separate from it so that it does not become you.
Do not fall back asleep to the dream; you need not suffer no more. Stay true to yourself, for your convictions are real and can help people.
You doubt because still there is fear of completely letting go. You must let go for you will grow in it and you will see more clearly.
You doubt your tasks and what I tell you but trust what you do, as it will help regardless. Where you see fault, learn and grow to do otherwise but trust too that your presence is enough.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Thoughts meandering: integrity...ego, the global citizen...
I am not my thoughts.
It seems that one might believe it so much that they become critical, judgmental, and/or emotional to react as if everything I think, I should say. Clearly, all thoughts are not true and so, oftentimes, I ponder to myself without sharing. Oftentimes, I have few words to make sense of what I think and so when I speak, simply out of discomfort, I feel dumb.
I am comforted by what Gandhi has to say about this:
"Experience has taught me that silence if part of the spiritual discipline of a votary of truth. Proneness to exaggerate, to suppress or modify the truth, wittingly or unwittingly, is a natural weakness of man, and silence is necessary in order to surmount it. A man of few words will rarely be thoughtless in his speech; he will measure every word. We find so many people impatient to talk. There is no chairman of a meeting who is not pestered with notes for permission to speak...All this talking can hardly be said to be of any benefit to the world. It is so much waste of time. My shyness has been in reality my shield and buckler. It has allowed me to grow. It has helped me in my discernment of truth." (Gandhi, 62)
Admittedly, I often sit in discernment of my thoughts. My ego-ic parts still run a muck at times and although I am much more capable of discerning the truth from my ego, I still at times, just want to shut it up. To me, it is like hearing an abusive person tell me the lies I have been told my whole life. I am so grateful to have grown from feeding the ego-ic thoughts however, and will say that it is helpful to let them be, more so than give them energy by reacting to them.
Clearly, I need to meditate longer, or do I? I have met a good deal of powerful healers and non-reactive teachers to observe that there is that chariot in their being, a great deal of light, gifts bestowed, beside a shadow/ego that just doesn't budge. Perhaps it is the case that we can never get rid of the ego-ic machine but rather it is the awareness of who we are that is naturally good and of service to God/love that keeps our integrity intact and in service to the higher good for all beings. It is an ego that directs itself to God, to loving and serving another to make him greater than himself that separates him from the demise of shadow.
"The most evolved soul becomes the global citizen."
I remember hearing this at the Science and Non-Duality Conference and it makes sense to me; the more unified one becomes, the greater their compassion and ability to serve. Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Bob Marley and Jesus are the most notable in mind, all of whom praise and love God.
So perhaps the most evolved soul is the one who directs his attention to the divine, to God, who grants him his abilities, to be put to use to serve the greater good.
And so he merges into oneness to be all that he can be onto this life and serve for generations to come.
It seems that one might believe it so much that they become critical, judgmental, and/or emotional to react as if everything I think, I should say. Clearly, all thoughts are not true and so, oftentimes, I ponder to myself without sharing. Oftentimes, I have few words to make sense of what I think and so when I speak, simply out of discomfort, I feel dumb.
I am comforted by what Gandhi has to say about this:
"Experience has taught me that silence if part of the spiritual discipline of a votary of truth. Proneness to exaggerate, to suppress or modify the truth, wittingly or unwittingly, is a natural weakness of man, and silence is necessary in order to surmount it. A man of few words will rarely be thoughtless in his speech; he will measure every word. We find so many people impatient to talk. There is no chairman of a meeting who is not pestered with notes for permission to speak...All this talking can hardly be said to be of any benefit to the world. It is so much waste of time. My shyness has been in reality my shield and buckler. It has allowed me to grow. It has helped me in my discernment of truth." (Gandhi, 62)
Admittedly, I often sit in discernment of my thoughts. My ego-ic parts still run a muck at times and although I am much more capable of discerning the truth from my ego, I still at times, just want to shut it up. To me, it is like hearing an abusive person tell me the lies I have been told my whole life. I am so grateful to have grown from feeding the ego-ic thoughts however, and will say that it is helpful to let them be, more so than give them energy by reacting to them.
Clearly, I need to meditate longer, or do I? I have met a good deal of powerful healers and non-reactive teachers to observe that there is that chariot in their being, a great deal of light, gifts bestowed, beside a shadow/ego that just doesn't budge. Perhaps it is the case that we can never get rid of the ego-ic machine but rather it is the awareness of who we are that is naturally good and of service to God/love that keeps our integrity intact and in service to the higher good for all beings. It is an ego that directs itself to God, to loving and serving another to make him greater than himself that separates him from the demise of shadow.
"The most evolved soul becomes the global citizen."
I remember hearing this at the Science and Non-Duality Conference and it makes sense to me; the more unified one becomes, the greater their compassion and ability to serve. Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Bob Marley and Jesus are the most notable in mind, all of whom praise and love God.
So perhaps the most evolved soul is the one who directs his attention to the divine, to God, who grants him his abilities, to be put to use to serve the greater good.
And so he merges into oneness to be all that he can be onto this life and serve for generations to come.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Medicine along the path: The gift of being shamed
This blog is a response to a good deal of criticism and negativity that came at me from a stranger whom I haven't met...
There is no shame to feel sad that there are indeed people who say they are working on themselves and yet continue to project blame and shame onto you as if you are "wrong" or "bad." When they do not know you and you not them, what cause is there to make wrong but feel the pain of the world. This indeed is the pain of the world for to make "wrong" and judge what could otherwise be useful, creative energy, of service to love/God, becomes suppressed and denied, consequently manifesting as guilt, shame and fear. So the cycle continues as traumas reenact to confirm the already existing belief that what is outside is "wrong" and that what is "wrong" is hopeless.
To view the world as "hopeless" is really suppressed and/or denied creative energy manifesting as guilt, shame and fear; for to deny oneself of his/her ability to create, is, in reality, what keeps us less than realizing who we are. So some may fear to realize that who they are is more than who they are being and so may be so full of shame, that to feel would be painful and think it better to give it to someone else.
To be aware of this is to realize that although we are One along the spiritual path, to be absorbed in the shame and blame of another is to hinder One's ability to evolve, for to get caught in the negativity will only create more illusion, more maya to heal and clear.
Therefore, pay attention to those whom speak negatively and do not allow those whom abuse the gift of your presence to be given your energy any longer. Trust and have faith that all is meant to teach and learn that who "I am" is more than what many people realize in themselves.
May this be medicine for all evolved souls on the path of spiritual growth and development.
There is no shame to feel sad that there are indeed people who say they are working on themselves and yet continue to project blame and shame onto you as if you are "wrong" or "bad." When they do not know you and you not them, what cause is there to make wrong but feel the pain of the world. This indeed is the pain of the world for to make "wrong" and judge what could otherwise be useful, creative energy, of service to love/God, becomes suppressed and denied, consequently manifesting as guilt, shame and fear. So the cycle continues as traumas reenact to confirm the already existing belief that what is outside is "wrong" and that what is "wrong" is hopeless.
To view the world as "hopeless" is really suppressed and/or denied creative energy manifesting as guilt, shame and fear; for to deny oneself of his/her ability to create, is, in reality, what keeps us less than realizing who we are. So some may fear to realize that who they are is more than who they are being and so may be so full of shame, that to feel would be painful and think it better to give it to someone else.
To be aware of this is to realize that although we are One along the spiritual path, to be absorbed in the shame and blame of another is to hinder One's ability to evolve, for to get caught in the negativity will only create more illusion, more maya to heal and clear.
Therefore, pay attention to those whom speak negatively and do not allow those whom abuse the gift of your presence to be given your energy any longer. Trust and have faith that all is meant to teach and learn that who "I am" is more than what many people realize in themselves.
May this be medicine for all evolved souls on the path of spiritual growth and development.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
The Law Aligns with the Unconditional Love of God...
The laws align according to those who live in harmony with the unconditional love of God.
God would not interfere with these laws, as God would not punish his children, simply for not obeying. All God does is love and yet for some, the universal laws have been confirmation to have us believe that we are separate from God, undeserving, "bad," or unworthy of God's love. For many, too, the wounds of separation may be so great as to shun another, and therefore themselves, in disbelief that they become unaware of the natural law and succumb to illusion instead.
Oftentimes, to share this information will only create a defended ego. The defended ego lives in illusion, all of which is suffering. Illusion masks our ability to see truth to the possibility of heaven on earth. However, it is our natural state, that who we are is divine, eternally born from heaven. On earth, we have the potential to be vehicles for God's work, if we so choose to awaken from the illusion, and realize that heaven is indeed in the mind, in our thinking. In this knowing, we can see every minute is a choice and all choices are opportunities to awaken and choose love over fear. It will be difficult indeed for making this choice may mean surrendering one's ego to open-heartedly accept judgement, ridicule, and shame, for the sake of unconditional love, not seemingly felt or reciprocated in return.
When love is so often mixed with fear, it is difficult to discern. However, it is what we must do, for heaven on earth is not born of fear. Such is the case for me today that in a workshop, I was ridiculed and shamed for "being late" and not saying what the "others" wanted me to say to make up for breaking my word. I was an example for many and it was not personal; however it was a long draw for at least an hour, and many people were angry and impatient. It seemed a test, and to me, it was a test to be love. In this instance, I got to observe that in whose love I felt, I was deeply moved. In whose fear I felt, I was pained. How difficult, brave and courageous it is indeed, to be love, while in witness to a people that seems to feed the belief, that to give fear is to love and necessary for us to learn...
At times like these, I am grateful to know that God's love for me is unconditional and that the truth be known, heaven, where God lives, is within me calling me to my rescue. It is choosing loving myself over ego that I do not become callous and closed off and blaming another for not being seen. It is choosing to love myself that I become energized to give more love-unconditionally, albeit, with a good deal of forethought still, extracting truth from illusion in process.
Blessed are thee who call to heaven, out of love, and who strive to love unconditionally.
While it is true that I have still yet to perfect and manifest what I wish on demand and I still feel pain and with lessons to learn, I carry in my heart- more trust and faith. I feel blessed with wisdom and perspective, more peace, love, and compassion, and a great deal of gifts from heaven that I have never been more present to in my life. And while I hear people tell me how much I must do, I see that the being overrides doing, so that I need not do too much to manifest, but trust and have faith that all is unfolding and all will come in good time.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Fire Burning. Mind Wandering. Growing deeper into Earth.
I wonder how many of us can wake up into realizing the infinite possibilities and potential of creating more love in the world than fear. More of us embodying God’s unconditional love and grace and therefore, the freedom it brings to be of service to Mother Earth and her children and truly have fun and play in our bodies, without the need to hurt other potential awakened divine beings on earth...
I wonder...
I wonder how much time we have and about the next 7 generations to come...
I wonder how to be more effective with my words and if I am not, I pray for the courage to look and see where I am afraid...
I have a fire burning within me that wants to protect and help awaken the “crystal children,” the children of God that actually know it and have less fear because of it. I predict there will be more of them and that it will be fear that tries to suppress them, hindering our evolution into the next stage, the Aquarian Age. This is the age in which we realize our full potential. It is also the age of complete turn-around, which many will experience as crisis.
It is necessary that we look inside ourselves therefore. I pray that more and more, we set our intention to know God, feel fear and move forward, opening ourselves to alternative perspectives, new possibilities and greater trust, both within and out. I pray for the awakening, the courage to confront and stir the minds of those who doubt in themselves, while being unconditional love.
I have been asking myself what would unconditional love do or say to a person who wants to hurt people, physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually. Would it not also mean that it is he who also wishes to hurt himself, for fear of being “bad” or undeserving of love, would create guilt and that would mean he would have to feel.
He thinks he is a “bad” person and fears something within himself that he keeps on manipulating and unconsciously telling lies and creating fear...
1)Would love accept the lie and swallow the truth, not making what is said real or mean anything?
2)Would love accept and allow, that what will inspire and awaken can really only be in the direct experience of God and light shining within “others”.
3)Would love be direct and confronting and tell One what he may not be ready or desirous to here, if it will help him now or later down the road?
The answer to all of them, I believe, is YES. Unconditional love would see the wounded child, past history, social conditioning, karma.. and have compassion, acting according to that.
Admittedly, I realize that the ground from which I work feels shaky at times. Floods of doubt and fear come over to say things like, “Who am I?” “I shouldn’t...” But I also know that the purity of love will keep me intact and that things for “me” have still yet to unfold, constantly unfolding. Clearly, this question comes because I have many encounters and experiences within myself and observing outside, to see that what holds us back from love is often our own lack of awareness in truth and that the courage to confront has it’s costs and benefits which I must look at in myself...
And so I now turn to realize that perhaps it is the part of me that feels loneliness that would have me doubt my actions and words when I do indeed confront and face the emotions that come from doing so.
As I realize this, I can let it go. I can let go and trust that I AM Unconditional Love and that the words I say and actions I take will teach me something and “other,” whether now or down the road. To escape “loneliness” is an illusion for what is it, but an indication for me to love myself. This only comes with the awareness of knowing who I am and that I wouldn’t want anything but to be the brightest light I can be on this earth.
I am true to my commitment once I am reminded, that the business of awakening in a world that feeds separation is not always easy and even the more “awake” people feel sad, lonely and tired of hearing judgment.
Because the belief that we are separate, creates more of it, thinking and feeling “bad” needs to be confronted and looked at deeper. To think that I am deserving of punishment feeds self-loathing, which feeds all our deep and dark desires, which feeds more guilt, and so the cycle goes.
To confront is necessary and it is loving, as long as one is aware of the benefits gained and the possibilities intended. That to be love is to speak it regardless of the perceived losses and pitfalls and to not, is to sit and watch someone live out of darkness and suffering and create more of it in the world.
I realize also within me that what is being confronted with “other” is also medicine for me, meant to teach and prepare me for what I do not see in myself, the many facades of myself, that is.
I am thrilled right now to currently be reading the autobiography of Gandhi. How opinionated was he and humble in his humanness and yet such a light of truth and purity in his heart. I am happy to here his process, his journey and commitment to choose the light of truth. I am inspired by his humility and courage to share himself with transparency and I hope to live and walk with confidence and courage as he, despite my humanness. I wish the same for "others."
May we all walk in the light of truth that who we are is divine and full of infinite creative potential. May we walk and talk and be an example of humbleness, humility and grace that we need not be perfect but authentic to ourselves and creator. May what is unconscious, become conscious, felt and healed, so that we may live in the light of truth, that to think "bad" simply creates more of it and we need not suffer more than we need. Amen.
I wonder...
I wonder how much time we have and about the next 7 generations to come...
I wonder how to be more effective with my words and if I am not, I pray for the courage to look and see where I am afraid...
I have a fire burning within me that wants to protect and help awaken the “crystal children,” the children of God that actually know it and have less fear because of it. I predict there will be more of them and that it will be fear that tries to suppress them, hindering our evolution into the next stage, the Aquarian Age. This is the age in which we realize our full potential. It is also the age of complete turn-around, which many will experience as crisis.
It is necessary that we look inside ourselves therefore. I pray that more and more, we set our intention to know God, feel fear and move forward, opening ourselves to alternative perspectives, new possibilities and greater trust, both within and out. I pray for the awakening, the courage to confront and stir the minds of those who doubt in themselves, while being unconditional love.
I have been asking myself what would unconditional love do or say to a person who wants to hurt people, physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually. Would it not also mean that it is he who also wishes to hurt himself, for fear of being “bad” or undeserving of love, would create guilt and that would mean he would have to feel.
He thinks he is a “bad” person and fears something within himself that he keeps on manipulating and unconsciously telling lies and creating fear...
1)Would love accept the lie and swallow the truth, not making what is said real or mean anything?
2)Would love accept and allow, that what will inspire and awaken can really only be in the direct experience of God and light shining within “others”.
3)Would love be direct and confronting and tell One what he may not be ready or desirous to here, if it will help him now or later down the road?
The answer to all of them, I believe, is YES. Unconditional love would see the wounded child, past history, social conditioning, karma.. and have compassion, acting according to that.
Admittedly, I realize that the ground from which I work feels shaky at times. Floods of doubt and fear come over to say things like, “Who am I?” “I shouldn’t...” But I also know that the purity of love will keep me intact and that things for “me” have still yet to unfold, constantly unfolding. Clearly, this question comes because I have many encounters and experiences within myself and observing outside, to see that what holds us back from love is often our own lack of awareness in truth and that the courage to confront has it’s costs and benefits which I must look at in myself...
And so I now turn to realize that perhaps it is the part of me that feels loneliness that would have me doubt my actions and words when I do indeed confront and face the emotions that come from doing so.
As I realize this, I can let it go. I can let go and trust that I AM Unconditional Love and that the words I say and actions I take will teach me something and “other,” whether now or down the road. To escape “loneliness” is an illusion for what is it, but an indication for me to love myself. This only comes with the awareness of knowing who I am and that I wouldn’t want anything but to be the brightest light I can be on this earth.
I am true to my commitment once I am reminded, that the business of awakening in a world that feeds separation is not always easy and even the more “awake” people feel sad, lonely and tired of hearing judgment.
Because the belief that we are separate, creates more of it, thinking and feeling “bad” needs to be confronted and looked at deeper. To think that I am deserving of punishment feeds self-loathing, which feeds all our deep and dark desires, which feeds more guilt, and so the cycle goes.
To confront is necessary and it is loving, as long as one is aware of the benefits gained and the possibilities intended. That to be love is to speak it regardless of the perceived losses and pitfalls and to not, is to sit and watch someone live out of darkness and suffering and create more of it in the world.
I realize also within me that what is being confronted with “other” is also medicine for me, meant to teach and prepare me for what I do not see in myself, the many facades of myself, that is.
I am thrilled right now to currently be reading the autobiography of Gandhi. How opinionated was he and humble in his humanness and yet such a light of truth and purity in his heart. I am happy to here his process, his journey and commitment to choose the light of truth. I am inspired by his humility and courage to share himself with transparency and I hope to live and walk with confidence and courage as he, despite my humanness. I wish the same for "others."
May we all walk in the light of truth that who we are is divine and full of infinite creative potential. May we walk and talk and be an example of humbleness, humility and grace that we need not be perfect but authentic to ourselves and creator. May what is unconscious, become conscious, felt and healed, so that we may live in the light of truth, that to think "bad" simply creates more of it and we need not suffer more than we need. Amen.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Prayer
I pray that I may let go enough to see the illusions- all of that which prevent me from experiencing the presence of love. All the fear, all the doubt, whether mine or "other," I pray that I continue to walk in self-reflective courage to see and be love, no matter what.
I pray that I walk in courage, knowing that I am a unique expression of the divine and that is enough to keep me moving forward. I need not compare myself. I need not prove to any ego that I am good enough, smart enough, or worthy enough.
I pray to distinguish all doubt from the truth that loves me and shows me who I am, which is divine and one with all.
I pray that I walk with the awareness of knowing that it is not God that doubts me, rather it is ego/fear and that this is the only distinction that I need to make in my life.
I forgive the ego, who thrives on guilt, shame and fear, and I am grateful, for it invariably shows me where separation leads and where I'd rather be, which is in the blissful state of knowing that love is the answer to everything in my life.
I let go of labels and I release the need to know. I trust that everything is working accordingly and in this knowing, I walk forward knowing that I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to serve the evolution of unconditional love, which is God.
I am grateful for everything in my life.
I am patient, trusting and I walk in faith that the love of God will pull us through all chaos, crisis, and illusion. I need not fall into the trap of believing that heaven is anywhere other than in the mind. In this knowing, I realize that heaven is a constant choice and that heaven is where all miracles live.
I pray that I walk in courage, knowing that I am a unique expression of the divine and that is enough to keep me moving forward. I need not compare myself. I need not prove to any ego that I am good enough, smart enough, or worthy enough.
I pray to distinguish all doubt from the truth that loves me and shows me who I am, which is divine and one with all.
I pray that I walk with the awareness of knowing that it is not God that doubts me, rather it is ego/fear and that this is the only distinction that I need to make in my life.
I forgive the ego, who thrives on guilt, shame and fear, and I am grateful, for it invariably shows me where separation leads and where I'd rather be, which is in the blissful state of knowing that love is the answer to everything in my life.
I let go of labels and I release the need to know. I trust that everything is working accordingly and in this knowing, I walk forward knowing that I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to serve the evolution of unconditional love, which is God.
I am grateful for everything in my life.
I am patient, trusting and I walk in faith that the love of God will pull us through all chaos, crisis, and illusion. I need not fall into the trap of believing that heaven is anywhere other than in the mind. In this knowing, I realize that heaven is a constant choice and that heaven is where all miracles live.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Lying
The source of love does not reside outside. We often think we need to lie because we believe that it does. We feel ashamed of things we do, that lying becomes the habitual form of holding back. We say, we need to lie and that if we didn’t, we’d hurt “others” feelings but the truth is, we feel we need to lie because the shame and guilt we feel. A lot of us were conditioned to believe that if we didn’t lie, it would be too hard and burdensome to face the shame and guilt. At the root is a fear of judgement that if we were judged, we’d in turn have to face judgement on ourselves and that would make it more difficult to love ourselves. So we hold back, thinking we need to lie, only to face the consequence of guilt we have for lying and more lying and hiding to cover up.
If we knew that we were the source of love and that the love of God were in fact unconditional, that anything other than the love of God is ego, our choices to be courageous in the face of fear and judgment would be easier. This is my experience at least, that when I want to hide and become confronted, I realize the shame and can then decide to let it go. All I need is to remember the love of God is unconditional and that it was that in a flash, I chose fear and lied only to be presented with the shame and guilt as a consequence.
The Course in Miracles sources forgiveness as the salvation through which we render freedom and that if it were not for the guilt and fear the ego would not thrive to create the divisions we would have ourselves see or experience within ourselves. So perhaps it is that in lying, we mask shame, guilt and fear, only to create more of it, and that only until it is confronted within and acknowledged, do we have this opportunity to forgive ourselves and let go.
If we knew that we were the source of love and that the love of God were in fact unconditional, that anything other than the love of God is ego, our choices to be courageous in the face of fear and judgment would be easier. This is my experience at least, that when I want to hide and become confronted, I realize the shame and can then decide to let it go. All I need is to remember the love of God is unconditional and that it was that in a flash, I chose fear and lied only to be presented with the shame and guilt as a consequence.
The Course in Miracles sources forgiveness as the salvation through which we render freedom and that if it were not for the guilt and fear the ego would not thrive to create the divisions we would have ourselves see or experience within ourselves. So perhaps it is that in lying, we mask shame, guilt and fear, only to create more of it, and that only until it is confronted within and acknowledged, do we have this opportunity to forgive ourselves and let go.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Remembering takes Healing
Life it seems is a process of remembering and then integrating what we forgot into manifesting something that is for the good of all. It is our unique expression of love and of creation that is divine. We forget because we have been socially conditioned throughout lifetimes. We have been socially conditioned through media, friends, family, education, religion, and even art. We have been conditioned to look outside ourselves for answers.
Often, we don’t give ourselves the time and space to look within ourselves and we don’t have the mirrors that encourage this either. Easily do we forget the truth that who we are is divine and with that is infinite creative potential. This is one reason we turn and hide, that when we are constantly looking outside ourselves for answers, we get mirrors of suppressed and denied guilt, shame and fear that make it difficult to feel and see the truth that is inside. This truth is the way through every block perceived. At the same time, we mirror this guilt, shame and fear so we create more of it in ourselves and in the world. There is no one to blame and yet it is important to know that One is the true source of power, that is the deeper wisdom that is within. With this said, it is vital that as we evolve, that we find mirrors to foster this inner growth and that we take the time to go inside ourselves and look deeper at why we do the things we do.
Guilt, shame and fear are often disguised as projections of blame, the need to control, be right, superior, and/or victim. They are often what lie beneath the surface, driving our actions, that anyone looking to learn about themselves and heal will have to uncover and acknowledge. It will be difficult for some and yet the process of remembering takes undoing ourselves from the sources, the mass conditioning and paradigm that believes that we must fear in order to be better. Few have really benefitted from this paradigm thinking, while a great deal of us suffer.
Because it will be difficult to see that many of our perplexing thoughts and negative feelings are actually created by us, we will want to process this with another. At the same time, always trust the light. Imagine light. Visualize it. Integrate it into the shadow as much as possible. Invite it in and more of it will come. This light is love and you will know this light is love by the peace that it brings. This light is God and is always inside us.
Until we learn to integrate this light, the process of remembering could be clouded with doubt. This doubt is likely to suppress our truth that who we are is infinite, spiritual and beyond anything dark or base or negative that we fear. In time, this doubt will reveal itself as one of the greatest blocks to spiritual growth and development.
May the higher purpose be served.
Often, we don’t give ourselves the time and space to look within ourselves and we don’t have the mirrors that encourage this either. Easily do we forget the truth that who we are is divine and with that is infinite creative potential. This is one reason we turn and hide, that when we are constantly looking outside ourselves for answers, we get mirrors of suppressed and denied guilt, shame and fear that make it difficult to feel and see the truth that is inside. This truth is the way through every block perceived. At the same time, we mirror this guilt, shame and fear so we create more of it in ourselves and in the world. There is no one to blame and yet it is important to know that One is the true source of power, that is the deeper wisdom that is within. With this said, it is vital that as we evolve, that we find mirrors to foster this inner growth and that we take the time to go inside ourselves and look deeper at why we do the things we do.
Guilt, shame and fear are often disguised as projections of blame, the need to control, be right, superior, and/or victim. They are often what lie beneath the surface, driving our actions, that anyone looking to learn about themselves and heal will have to uncover and acknowledge. It will be difficult for some and yet the process of remembering takes undoing ourselves from the sources, the mass conditioning and paradigm that believes that we must fear in order to be better. Few have really benefitted from this paradigm thinking, while a great deal of us suffer.
Because it will be difficult to see that many of our perplexing thoughts and negative feelings are actually created by us, we will want to process this with another. At the same time, always trust the light. Imagine light. Visualize it. Integrate it into the shadow as much as possible. Invite it in and more of it will come. This light is love and you will know this light is love by the peace that it brings. This light is God and is always inside us.
Until we learn to integrate this light, the process of remembering could be clouded with doubt. This doubt is likely to suppress our truth that who we are is infinite, spiritual and beyond anything dark or base or negative that we fear. In time, this doubt will reveal itself as one of the greatest blocks to spiritual growth and development.
May the higher purpose be served.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
The evolutionary principle: Shifting our awareness to love's presence
Why is it that we sometimes wish ourselves to be superior, greater than, or better than "other?"
What would be at the root is a greater effort to be and see love in ourselves; however still, feeding the ego-ic machine that runs on fear, guilt and shame. The more fragmented we are into believing that those people we see are competitors rather than mirrors or aspects of ourselves, the more we judge and compare, forgetting to trust that we matter, every one of us. We fear not mattering. We project our guilt of being imperfect and we also shame ourselves for it. Instead of knowing that we all have a purpose, a function, a duty and a light that is our own unique expression of love to this world, we focus and feed the illusion of power and separation instead.
Because the ego-ic machine has been running our lives for lifetimes, it is very difficult to see that shame, guilt and fear has been the driving force behind our actions and that because of this, our thinking requires a rewiring into the thought system of love, rather than fear. This will go, not without resistance, so that their may be a struggling within ourselves to constantly be choosing love over fear. The feeling may be that of "madness," an overwhelm of having gone crazy or may be going crazy. In this pull of light and dark, we may feel bad and guilty for having thoughts that are not in the thought system of love, but still of fear; however knowing that it is not fear we want, nor is it our desire to create in "others."
It is valuable to know that this struggle is a part of the evolutionary process and that we are in fact evolving. Not everyone will struggle, but many will. We need only to focus our attention on love's presence and not feed the thoughts of fear that lie beneath the surface. The more we direct our thoughts toward love, the less we feed fear. It is also something to note that "where thoughts go, energy flows." Meditation is important, as well as being surrounded by healthy, positive mirrors and spending time alone in contemplation, writing, reading, drawing...whatever creative means to release the fear and direct our thinking.
May we fill ourselves with love and direct our attention to the truth that we are all God's children, that we need not compare to know that we matter. May we move forward with in this knowing.
What would be at the root is a greater effort to be and see love in ourselves; however still, feeding the ego-ic machine that runs on fear, guilt and shame. The more fragmented we are into believing that those people we see are competitors rather than mirrors or aspects of ourselves, the more we judge and compare, forgetting to trust that we matter, every one of us. We fear not mattering. We project our guilt of being imperfect and we also shame ourselves for it. Instead of knowing that we all have a purpose, a function, a duty and a light that is our own unique expression of love to this world, we focus and feed the illusion of power and separation instead.
Because the ego-ic machine has been running our lives for lifetimes, it is very difficult to see that shame, guilt and fear has been the driving force behind our actions and that because of this, our thinking requires a rewiring into the thought system of love, rather than fear. This will go, not without resistance, so that their may be a struggling within ourselves to constantly be choosing love over fear. The feeling may be that of "madness," an overwhelm of having gone crazy or may be going crazy. In this pull of light and dark, we may feel bad and guilty for having thoughts that are not in the thought system of love, but still of fear; however knowing that it is not fear we want, nor is it our desire to create in "others."
It is valuable to know that this struggle is a part of the evolutionary process and that we are in fact evolving. Not everyone will struggle, but many will. We need only to focus our attention on love's presence and not feed the thoughts of fear that lie beneath the surface. The more we direct our thoughts toward love, the less we feed fear. It is also something to note that "where thoughts go, energy flows." Meditation is important, as well as being surrounded by healthy, positive mirrors and spending time alone in contemplation, writing, reading, drawing...whatever creative means to release the fear and direct our thinking.
May we fill ourselves with love and direct our attention to the truth that we are all God's children, that we need not compare to know that we matter. May we move forward with in this knowing.
The illusion of Power
The illusion of power was set up as a disguise to have us believe that we can possibly control anyone or anything outside of our own thinking, habits and concerns. It is not true that anyone can control us without us willing to do so. Perhaps, however, the illusion of power is so imbedded in our society and social conditioning that it would have us believe that the source of our strength is outside, rather than than inside of ourselves.
Can anyone really control me if I knew that the strength of God was actually inside of me? If I knew that God, who never lies and always leads me to love, was inside of me, would I need to look anywhere outside for this confirmation?
Perhaps this is where we are stooped into believing and therefore creating that we are victims without choice and that the oppressor can take our power without our willingness to do so. Perhaps, the true source of power is in our being, that when oppression happens, how I choose to think, act, and respond/react is what feeds the illusion of power and therefore creates more of it.
If my inner strength was so great, could I confront fear and oppression so that the spirit of who I am stays intact? When I think of this, I continuously think of Victor Frankl in his book, "Mans Search for Meaning," who stood witness to the oppression inflicted in the Jewish Concentration Camps and yet, observed within himself the light or the spirit, and contributes that to his being alive.
May we see the source of light and love within ourselves and trust it, so that we may ward off and dissolve any illusion of power that would have us believe that we are less than love.
Can anyone really control me if I knew that the strength of God was actually inside of me? If I knew that God, who never lies and always leads me to love, was inside of me, would I need to look anywhere outside for this confirmation?
Perhaps this is where we are stooped into believing and therefore creating that we are victims without choice and that the oppressor can take our power without our willingness to do so. Perhaps, the true source of power is in our being, that when oppression happens, how I choose to think, act, and respond/react is what feeds the illusion of power and therefore creates more of it.
If my inner strength was so great, could I confront fear and oppression so that the spirit of who I am stays intact? When I think of this, I continuously think of Victor Frankl in his book, "Mans Search for Meaning," who stood witness to the oppression inflicted in the Jewish Concentration Camps and yet, observed within himself the light or the spirit, and contributes that to his being alive.
May we see the source of light and love within ourselves and trust it, so that we may ward off and dissolve any illusion of power that would have us believe that we are less than love.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
A message: for both spiritual teachers and seekers
The spiritual teacher.
Everyone is a spiritual teacher or can be. There will be many more spiritual teachers as we evolve. Some of them will be quite young and that will confuse our egos into defense. Spiritual teaching requires a great deal of trust and faith in the thought system of love, of God. A spiritual teacher in the new age of Aquarius, will want to teach through deliverance of experiences and share wisdom that help us to trust in our own capabilities and inner wisdom. The teacher will have a "beingness" about them that expounds love, rather than separation. They will see the potential of love in everyone.
With this said, it is important to acknowledge that a great deal of spiritual teachers are not completely healed, nor are on a path of healing. If a spiritual teacher is not on a path of healing her/his own separation wounds, then it is likely that the teacher will still have a strong ego-ic influence, based in fear and separation, and will either hinder or limit the growth of the spiritual seekers that he/she teaches. This is something to be aware of for both spiritual teachers and seekers. That if one is teaching, he/she will want to be on a path of healing and if not, will want to be honest and humble in sharing his/her limited capabilities as a teacher. We as seekers, on the other hand, will have to realize that it is also our demise to create a teacher as "perfect" or completely healed, when it is likely that the teacher will still carry with him/her life lessons and is also a student on the path as well.
We will know how healed a teacher is by the presence and integrity of the teacher. The unconditional love of the teacher will carry a being of acceptance, forgiveness, love and compassion. The amount of projection and defensiveness will also be helpful to discern how much the teacher has healed.
To acknowledge that spiritual teachers are learning, on the path WITH us, can bring a great deal of acceptance and healing to both the seeker and the teacher. While a teacher carries with them great gifts of healing and wholeness, we can acknowledge and accept that no human is perfect and be humble and loving in this knowing.
May we evolve into the oneness to see that we are all students and also teachers. May we be grateful for the teachings and life lessons. May we forgive the ego. May we heal ourselves from the wounds of separation.
Everyone is a spiritual teacher or can be. There will be many more spiritual teachers as we evolve. Some of them will be quite young and that will confuse our egos into defense. Spiritual teaching requires a great deal of trust and faith in the thought system of love, of God. A spiritual teacher in the new age of Aquarius, will want to teach through deliverance of experiences and share wisdom that help us to trust in our own capabilities and inner wisdom. The teacher will have a "beingness" about them that expounds love, rather than separation. They will see the potential of love in everyone.
With this said, it is important to acknowledge that a great deal of spiritual teachers are not completely healed, nor are on a path of healing. If a spiritual teacher is not on a path of healing her/his own separation wounds, then it is likely that the teacher will still have a strong ego-ic influence, based in fear and separation, and will either hinder or limit the growth of the spiritual seekers that he/she teaches. This is something to be aware of for both spiritual teachers and seekers. That if one is teaching, he/she will want to be on a path of healing and if not, will want to be honest and humble in sharing his/her limited capabilities as a teacher. We as seekers, on the other hand, will have to realize that it is also our demise to create a teacher as "perfect" or completely healed, when it is likely that the teacher will still carry with him/her life lessons and is also a student on the path as well.
We will know how healed a teacher is by the presence and integrity of the teacher. The unconditional love of the teacher will carry a being of acceptance, forgiveness, love and compassion. The amount of projection and defensiveness will also be helpful to discern how much the teacher has healed.
To acknowledge that spiritual teachers are learning, on the path WITH us, can bring a great deal of acceptance and healing to both the seeker and the teacher. While a teacher carries with them great gifts of healing and wholeness, we can acknowledge and accept that no human is perfect and be humble and loving in this knowing.
May we evolve into the oneness to see that we are all students and also teachers. May we be grateful for the teachings and life lessons. May we forgive the ego. May we heal ourselves from the wounds of separation.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Prayer of blessings bestowed.
Inspired.
Powerful.
Blessed.
Grateful.
In love.
Ecstatic.
Righteous.
I love God.
Trusting.
Getting out of the way.
I trust my experience.
Wow!
Heaven and Earth.
Here and now.
Blessed.
Grateful.
Grateful.
Grateful.
Devoted.
In service to...
God.
Holier than holy.
Light within shadow.
Unconditional love.
Righteous.
Of service.
More and more blessings.
More and more healed people.
Healings and blessings bestowed.
Lighwork energy.
Inspiration.
Powerful.
Beyond imagined.
Astounded!
Faith and knowing.
Personal experience.
We trust
We are trusting.
We are trusting.
God. God. God.
Unconditional love
Evolving.
Evolving into oneness.
We merge.
Light and dark.
Light overcomes shadow.
Merging.
Oneness.
High vibration.
Grounded.
Feeling fears.
Expressed.
Letting go.
Cleaning and clearing.
We ARE!
I AM!
We are ONE.
Infinite abundance.
Joy.
Peace.
Vitality.
Prosperity.
Creating jobs.
Sustaining mother earth.
Sustaining mother earth.
Praising God.
Listening.
Trusting.
Trusting.
Knowing through personal experience.
Safe.
Protected.
Love.
Love.
Love..
Holding space.
Inspired.
SACRED.
Grateful.
Mother.
Father.
Grateful.
Powerful.
Blessed.
Grateful.
In love.
Ecstatic.
Righteous.
I love God.
Trusting.
Getting out of the way.
I trust my experience.
Wow!
Heaven and Earth.
Here and now.
Blessed.
Grateful.
Grateful.
Grateful.
Devoted.
In service to...
God.
Holier than holy.
Light within shadow.
Unconditional love.
Righteous.
Of service.
More and more blessings.
More and more healed people.
Healings and blessings bestowed.
Lighwork energy.
Inspiration.
Powerful.
Beyond imagined.
Astounded!
Faith and knowing.
Personal experience.
We trust
We are trusting.
We are trusting.
God. God. God.
Unconditional love
Evolving.
Evolving into oneness.
We merge.
Light and dark.
Light overcomes shadow.
Merging.
Oneness.
High vibration.
Grounded.
Feeling fears.
Expressed.
Letting go.
Cleaning and clearing.
We ARE!
I AM!
We are ONE.
Infinite abundance.
Joy.
Peace.
Vitality.
Prosperity.
Creating jobs.
Sustaining mother earth.
Sustaining mother earth.
Praising God.
Listening.
Trusting.
Trusting.
Knowing through personal experience.
Safe.
Protected.
Love.
Love.
Love..
Holding space.
Inspired.
SACRED.
Grateful.
Mother.
Father.
Grateful.
Monday, September 12, 2011
A perspective on thought
"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thought. With our thoughts, we make our world." ~The Buddha
I believe this quote by the Buddha reveals a 1/2 truth.
If everything that arose from thought were creating our world, perhaps this is why we have war. Most of us, if not all, struggle with our thoughts. On one end, our thinking is light; it is the thought system of love, of heaven or of nirvana. On the other end, our thinking is dark. We tend to hide our darkness, suppress and deny that it exists. We hide it through shame, blame, guilt and fear. What happens, however, is that the shame, guilt and fear gets stored in the body, in the unconscious and creates trouble. This manifests as projections that are seemingly outside, reflecting part(s) of us to be brought to light and healed.
It is not thinking that is bad, it is how we interpret our thoughts and try to suppress and deny them that wreaks havoc. While it is true that thinking shapes our perception, our view of life, it is not true that every thought that comes into mind is who we are.
To know this is true, because truth is love and love would not deny a thought simply for having it.
With that said, when darkness arises, ask yourself what light can we shed to learn about ourselves? What healing do I need to reveal about myself, through this thought? What can I learn about myself through shame, guilt and fear? Where did I learn this? How committed am I to this thought? What do I want to do about it?
I believe this quote by the Buddha reveals a 1/2 truth.
If everything that arose from thought were creating our world, perhaps this is why we have war. Most of us, if not all, struggle with our thoughts. On one end, our thinking is light; it is the thought system of love, of heaven or of nirvana. On the other end, our thinking is dark. We tend to hide our darkness, suppress and deny that it exists. We hide it through shame, blame, guilt and fear. What happens, however, is that the shame, guilt and fear gets stored in the body, in the unconscious and creates trouble. This manifests as projections that are seemingly outside, reflecting part(s) of us to be brought to light and healed.
It is not thinking that is bad, it is how we interpret our thoughts and try to suppress and deny them that wreaks havoc. While it is true that thinking shapes our perception, our view of life, it is not true that every thought that comes into mind is who we are.
To know this is true, because truth is love and love would not deny a thought simply for having it.
With that said, when darkness arises, ask yourself what light can we shed to learn about ourselves? What healing do I need to reveal about myself, through this thought? What can I learn about myself through shame, guilt and fear? Where did I learn this? How committed am I to this thought? What do I want to do about it?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Healing by Revealing 1/2 truths
The truth is loving and will set me free.
Sometimes when we are told things about ourselves, we do not want to hear.
We do not want to hear because often times, what we hear are 1/2 truths.
On one hand, we have our stories and our experiences. On another hand, we have truth.
This truth is the way out of our stories. The truth sets us free of our past conditioning, our stories, lies and distortions.
When someone brings up our stories or things about ourselves that trigger a wound, it is brought up for us to heal so that we can see more truth than story.
So when a 1/2 truth is brought to the surface, will I choose to focus on the story or the truth?
The truth is love and because of that it lifts us from the fog, the stories, the lies, the energies that suppress our ability to see truth. The truth inspires and motivates us to goodness, to do and act in a good way, to move in a positive direction. The beholder of truth, the psychic, the therapist, the friend who reveals to us our 1/2 truth, that which has impeded our ability to see the whole truth, holds space and does not judge. He/she is loving and open; this catalyzes us to move in a positive direction, to access our deeper wisdom within ourselves and heal from the story/lie.
As is, the truth is who WE ARE. In kundalini yoga, we say, "Sat Nam," I am love. The truth is my identity.
*What makes a 1/2 truth are our stories that mask us from the full truth. 1/2 truths need to be revealed and then healed to see full truth.
*1/2 truths take us to truth but they are not themselves "true."
Sometimes when we are told things about ourselves, we do not want to hear.
We do not want to hear because often times, what we hear are 1/2 truths.
On one hand, we have our stories and our experiences. On another hand, we have truth.
This truth is the way out of our stories. The truth sets us free of our past conditioning, our stories, lies and distortions.
When someone brings up our stories or things about ourselves that trigger a wound, it is brought up for us to heal so that we can see more truth than story.
So when a 1/2 truth is brought to the surface, will I choose to focus on the story or the truth?
The truth is love and because of that it lifts us from the fog, the stories, the lies, the energies that suppress our ability to see truth. The truth inspires and motivates us to goodness, to do and act in a good way, to move in a positive direction. The beholder of truth, the psychic, the therapist, the friend who reveals to us our 1/2 truth, that which has impeded our ability to see the whole truth, holds space and does not judge. He/she is loving and open; this catalyzes us to move in a positive direction, to access our deeper wisdom within ourselves and heal from the story/lie.
As is, the truth is who WE ARE. In kundalini yoga, we say, "Sat Nam," I am love. The truth is my identity.
*What makes a 1/2 truth are our stories that mask us from the full truth. 1/2 truths need to be revealed and then healed to see full truth.
*1/2 truths take us to truth but they are not themselves "true."
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Sacred Medicine: Panther
A poem written in dedication to the light bringers of the shadow...(not written by me)
Panther Speaks:
Shadows dripping in silver light cast from an illusive moon,
stir, then magically still,
leaving doubts adrift in the mind of the observer . . .
was there movement of shadow within shadow,
or only the illusion of such,
like breath caught on a summer breeze?
Sister of Artemis, and Guardian of the Gateway
between the Known and the Unknown,
you prowl the Night, bearing witness to the blackness
that exists before the dawning of morning Light.
Blazing eyes pierce the veil of darkness of Forgotten Realms,
to bring Consciousness to the Unconscious.
To follow your sleek and silent form as it glides
as a spectral mist through the night,
is to face the deepest fears that prowl the jungles of
the Human Mind.
When we learn to move as you move,
through those overgrown and tangled vines,
we come to understand that even in the darkest of journeys,
the Illuminating Rays of faith and acknowledgment
will provide us with the Light to guide us safely
to the Other Side.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Relationship: Evolving from negative thinking
Does it seem that, generally, we tend to meet people where they are at by agreeing or conforming, at least for a short time, to the ways of partner/friend/comrade. Somewhere within our being there is a deep desire to connect and be met, acknowledged and loved by people around us and yet, not all the time, do we really agree or feel similarly to "other." Sometimes negativity, disagreement, and unsettled feelings seem to happen more often than good times. So we come at odds, struggling within ourselves and within our relationships.
Our ability to evolve is dependent on seeing healthy mirrors and spending time alone. When one is around negativity, then another may pick up that negatively and carry it with them until they actively clear it. For this reason , some relationships that were once close will want to be reevaluated. If there are relationships that drain our energy, we will want to consider how this investment costs us and how it benefits us.
For the evolutionary, on the path to higher consciousness, which I believe is toward conscious, unconditional love, there are good questions to consider when choosing to spend time with people.
What mirrors do I want to attract? What agreement/contract have I made to attract the relationships I am in?
Do I feel empowered in these relationships? How can I create an empowering relationship between us, so that we evolve each other, spiritually grow and develop?
How much time on earth am I willing to spend, living in a disempowered reality?
How often and how much can I presence love, without defense or need to be "right?"
How much can I love myself in the presence of this particular person/mirror?
Do I feel at one with myself in the presence of this perceived "other?"
Does our relationship feed separation or oneness?
Is there still learning and growing to do in this relationship?
What is working? What isn't working in this relationship?
What does this relationship have to teach me about myself?
There is great deal of us who fall into the category of negative thinking. It is not that we are negative, but there is a seed within us that we have been watering for lifetimes; that is, our ego. Without conscious awareness to perceive the ego's grip, to be right, special, superior, justified, we believe we are doing good by telling what is "wrong" in the world, ourselves, and each other. What often happens is that we tend to agree with negativity, through feeling sorry for the "other" and justifying their feelings as acceptable or through taking on their energy kinistetically. When we do this, what we actually do is create and attract more "wrong" in our life, perpetuating fear and emotional turmoils that strengthen the already existing separate mentality.
Because we are becoming more sensitive to subtler energies/realities, we want to make sure that we are feeding light and love and not negativity and fear. Therefore, it is important to learn to separate from negative energy. This can be done without blame, as everyone is a mirror and every moment can be an opportunity to practice, learn about ourselves, and heal.
One thing to consider is psychic regeneration and the subtle body. In kundalini yoga, we studied that there are actually 10 bodies, 6 bodies of which are subtle or etheric. These subtle bodies more greatly impact and effect our physical body, which is all that we see, our perception of reality. The view of reality, in which, we see, often masks our true identity; they are made up of visual imprints learned or conditioned throughout lifetimes. We can know our view of reality by looking at what is happening in present time, what we see projected outside of ourselves. With awareness, we can work to strengthen the subtle bodies and clear space within these realms, so that we can live from our true identity, as one.
The space that is required may be temporary but necessary for psychic regeneration to occur. Without this regeneration of the etheric or subtle realms, it becomes more difficult to love, like a fog has come over. Perhaps, all one needs to clear the air/space within relationship is time apart. While within established relationships, we want to continue growing and developing ourselves together and we care about the "other," we also need to listen to ourselves. If we don't take the space we need to regenerate, integrate what we are learning, and restore our life force energy, we become a breeding ground for negativity.
Therefore, as much as possible, spend time alone and in the accompaniment of clean, friendly, creative, loving mirrors- however that looks.
Our ability to evolve is dependent on seeing healthy mirrors and spending time alone. When one is around negativity, then another may pick up that negatively and carry it with them until they actively clear it. For this reason , some relationships that were once close will want to be reevaluated. If there are relationships that drain our energy, we will want to consider how this investment costs us and how it benefits us.
For the evolutionary, on the path to higher consciousness, which I believe is toward conscious, unconditional love, there are good questions to consider when choosing to spend time with people.
What mirrors do I want to attract? What agreement/contract have I made to attract the relationships I am in?
Do I feel empowered in these relationships? How can I create an empowering relationship between us, so that we evolve each other, spiritually grow and develop?
How much time on earth am I willing to spend, living in a disempowered reality?
How often and how much can I presence love, without defense or need to be "right?"
How much can I love myself in the presence of this particular person/mirror?
Do I feel at one with myself in the presence of this perceived "other?"
Does our relationship feed separation or oneness?
Is there still learning and growing to do in this relationship?
What is working? What isn't working in this relationship?
What does this relationship have to teach me about myself?
There is great deal of us who fall into the category of negative thinking. It is not that we are negative, but there is a seed within us that we have been watering for lifetimes; that is, our ego. Without conscious awareness to perceive the ego's grip, to be right, special, superior, justified, we believe we are doing good by telling what is "wrong" in the world, ourselves, and each other. What often happens is that we tend to agree with negativity, through feeling sorry for the "other" and justifying their feelings as acceptable or through taking on their energy kinistetically. When we do this, what we actually do is create and attract more "wrong" in our life, perpetuating fear and emotional turmoils that strengthen the already existing separate mentality.
Because we are becoming more sensitive to subtler energies/realities, we want to make sure that we are feeding light and love and not negativity and fear. Therefore, it is important to learn to separate from negative energy. This can be done without blame, as everyone is a mirror and every moment can be an opportunity to practice, learn about ourselves, and heal.
One thing to consider is psychic regeneration and the subtle body. In kundalini yoga, we studied that there are actually 10 bodies, 6 bodies of which are subtle or etheric. These subtle bodies more greatly impact and effect our physical body, which is all that we see, our perception of reality. The view of reality, in which, we see, often masks our true identity; they are made up of visual imprints learned or conditioned throughout lifetimes. We can know our view of reality by looking at what is happening in present time, what we see projected outside of ourselves. With awareness, we can work to strengthen the subtle bodies and clear space within these realms, so that we can live from our true identity, as one.
The space that is required may be temporary but necessary for psychic regeneration to occur. Without this regeneration of the etheric or subtle realms, it becomes more difficult to love, like a fog has come over. Perhaps, all one needs to clear the air/space within relationship is time apart. While within established relationships, we want to continue growing and developing ourselves together and we care about the "other," we also need to listen to ourselves. If we don't take the space we need to regenerate, integrate what we are learning, and restore our life force energy, we become a breeding ground for negativity.
Therefore, as much as possible, spend time alone and in the accompaniment of clean, friendly, creative, loving mirrors- however that looks.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Journaling thoughts...
I am grateful. As I write, I learn. I am on a spiritual path as anyone, whether we know it or not, everything is spiritual...
Today I got, what I was perceiving as the dirtiest look someone could give me. I noticed shame within myself as well as the defense of wanting to make her wrong for my shame and for her shaming me. Then, I remembered, "this is just my experience. I could choose a different experience. See love", I thought, "and turn the other cheek."
So I thought about how this woman was probably amazing to someone and that there were qualities within her that I would love as well. Also, perhaps it was only because she became a victim to life or because she was afraid of something I did that she had the moment to give me such a dirty look. Perhaps she wasn't even giving me a dirty look but I was perceiving it as such based on my past experiences.
WHO KNOWs!
We can never know what one is thinking unless we ask. Therefore, it is ridiculous to make up stories or become hyper-aroused for perceived losses at what is likely to be our ego.
Only the ego can be hurt and defended by what others say or do. God, who is unconditional love, would simply hold space for our perceived losses/negativities and not make it mean anything. This, I truly believe and because it empowers and feeds me to think, act, and live for higher good, there is no convincing me otherwise.
There are a great deal of people that want to talk "philosophy" and debate whether God exists or not. To me, these conversations teach me that there are a lot of people (me included sometimes) who feel alone and unsupported and are angry and blame God. To me, this is because we were taught that we are separate from God. The truth is that we are co-creators, we are part divine and part animal. There is nothing to be ashamed of, but perhaps one of our purposes in life is to extract the truth from this belief in separation so that we can create more beauty, love, joy and happiness in the world.
Amen!
Today I got, what I was perceiving as the dirtiest look someone could give me. I noticed shame within myself as well as the defense of wanting to make her wrong for my shame and for her shaming me. Then, I remembered, "this is just my experience. I could choose a different experience. See love", I thought, "and turn the other cheek."
So I thought about how this woman was probably amazing to someone and that there were qualities within her that I would love as well. Also, perhaps it was only because she became a victim to life or because she was afraid of something I did that she had the moment to give me such a dirty look. Perhaps she wasn't even giving me a dirty look but I was perceiving it as such based on my past experiences.
WHO KNOWs!
We can never know what one is thinking unless we ask. Therefore, it is ridiculous to make up stories or become hyper-aroused for perceived losses at what is likely to be our ego.
Only the ego can be hurt and defended by what others say or do. God, who is unconditional love, would simply hold space for our perceived losses/negativities and not make it mean anything. This, I truly believe and because it empowers and feeds me to think, act, and live for higher good, there is no convincing me otherwise.
There are a great deal of people that want to talk "philosophy" and debate whether God exists or not. To me, these conversations teach me that there are a lot of people (me included sometimes) who feel alone and unsupported and are angry and blame God. To me, this is because we were taught that we are separate from God. The truth is that we are co-creators, we are part divine and part animal. There is nothing to be ashamed of, but perhaps one of our purposes in life is to extract the truth from this belief in separation so that we can create more beauty, love, joy and happiness in the world.
Amen!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Conscious love: "Turn the Other Cheek"
Matthew 5:38-42
You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’ But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
_________________________________________________________
What we give to another, we give to ourselves.
We hide our shame and fear in other people.
So when we "turn the other cheek", we replace negative reaction with positive, loving intent. Through positive, loving intent to see good and give love, we become mirrors for another and therefore ourselves, giving each other the opportunity to awaken to love and to healing.
Even if another is not loving or seemingly awakening, the love we give reverberates out to the universe so that what we give, we get in equal or greater return. This is what I perceive is meant by "eye for eye and tooth for tooth." If we give shame, fear, and guilt, we give the same to ourselves, through perceived losses and set-backs. If we give love, we awaken to it and become more aware of our potential/purpose. Through this, we become more evolved, conscious and aware.
When we give shame and fear, we perpetuate hidden, unconscious drives and tendencies that get mirrored from the outside for us to at some point, become aware and heal from. We need only to ask ourselves what we can learn that the positive, loving intent occurs. It is only a matter of time. Therefore, let's do our best!
May we awaken and evolve- each other!
You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’ But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
_________________________________________________________
What we give to another, we give to ourselves.
We hide our shame and fear in other people.
So when we "turn the other cheek", we replace negative reaction with positive, loving intent. Through positive, loving intent to see good and give love, we become mirrors for another and therefore ourselves, giving each other the opportunity to awaken to love and to healing.
Even if another is not loving or seemingly awakening, the love we give reverberates out to the universe so that what we give, we get in equal or greater return. This is what I perceive is meant by "eye for eye and tooth for tooth." If we give shame, fear, and guilt, we give the same to ourselves, through perceived losses and set-backs. If we give love, we awaken to it and become more aware of our potential/purpose. Through this, we become more evolved, conscious and aware.
When we give shame and fear, we perpetuate hidden, unconscious drives and tendencies that get mirrored from the outside for us to at some point, become aware and heal from. We need only to ask ourselves what we can learn that the positive, loving intent occurs. It is only a matter of time. Therefore, let's do our best!
May we awaken and evolve- each other!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
The evolutionary process
Through seeing and focusing on the commotion in our lives, we thereby create more of it. Through distraction, numbing ourselves, blame and shame, we give to "others" what we do not want to feel within ourselves. It is important to commit in advance therefore, that to see love is a choice and to be it is a practice.
Imagine that life is like a movie we go and pay for and watch on a screen. What we see in a movie, we expect to see because what we think we know about the movie, through the past actions of what it tells us, make it somehow predictable. So we pay and give in advance, oftentimes, what we learn from our past.
A wise teacher once said, "all growth starts with confusion." Perhaps then, it is the practice of not knowing, embracing fear and uncertainty, and trusting so that we can watch a different movie and create from it what we truly wish to see and experience in our lives. This is coming from a place of no evidence, but of faith, that what we create is what we choose to see, regardless of what is being presented.
This can be quite a challenge; however, always turn to love and focus on the good of any situation. 2 of the 5 sutras for the times in which we live is that "there is a way through every block" and "start and the pressure will be off." As we evolve into the Oneness of Love, the blocks will be our own self-loathing, emotional turmoils that we will need to heal from. If we focus on love, we will see that the impediments to our growth are in having been not seeing the love, as well as our confusion about what love is. Therefore, a significant stage in our growth and spiritual development is in relearning what love is.
Imagine that life is like a movie we go and pay for and watch on a screen. What we see in a movie, we expect to see because what we think we know about the movie, through the past actions of what it tells us, make it somehow predictable. So we pay and give in advance, oftentimes, what we learn from our past.
A wise teacher once said, "all growth starts with confusion." Perhaps then, it is the practice of not knowing, embracing fear and uncertainty, and trusting so that we can watch a different movie and create from it what we truly wish to see and experience in our lives. This is coming from a place of no evidence, but of faith, that what we create is what we choose to see, regardless of what is being presented.
This can be quite a challenge; however, always turn to love and focus on the good of any situation. 2 of the 5 sutras for the times in which we live is that "there is a way through every block" and "start and the pressure will be off." As we evolve into the Oneness of Love, the blocks will be our own self-loathing, emotional turmoils that we will need to heal from. If we focus on love, we will see that the impediments to our growth are in having been not seeing the love, as well as our confusion about what love is. Therefore, a significant stage in our growth and spiritual development is in relearning what love is.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Emotion
As Yogi Bhajan said, emotion can be either a catalyst for devotion or it can create commotion.
It seems that the ego really likes to pull at us, creating a neurosis that may seem at times maddening. We go back and forth between light and dark, heaven and earth, love and fear. At times, we love ourselves and other times, we want to run away from ourselves. We love what we do and then we hate it. This is what happens when our emotions become commotion. It becomes a noise that gets us out of being present to heaven: beauty, joy, abundance, and peace, here on earth. Through the commotion, we distract ourselves...
Sometimes distractions are a great companion and other times, they simply create more commotion. I notice that when I impulsively act from emotion, it tends to feed guilt and shame. Perhaps this is because guilt and shame are at the root of our belief in separation from God and has been so ingrained in our culture and conditioning since at or before birth. The difference, I find, is when I pray; when I shift my awareness and focus my attention on my devotion to Love, to God, that which is greater and higher than my ego. With prayer, even before I do something to distract myself, everything becomes more sacred. I notice that this brings me the greatest peace.
I pray for this remembrance always.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Love and war
We have to keep trusting.
No matter what!
No matter who says we are less than we are.
No matter tyranny and mayhem that happens.
If we fight we fight FOR love.
We fight for unity and oneness.
There are no separations-
between "us" and "them"
There is no tyranny, that we do not do to ourselves or are also a part of.
To know this is to see oneness and at the same time,
to fight on behalf of God or "truth" would always be and only if in the name of love.
God is ALL love, unconditional, unwavering, absolute LOVE.
God sees no difference between "us" and "them"
At the same time, if we truly work toward love, then it is dissolving the illusion of separateness.
Can war dissolve separation?
Or do we feed separation through war?
When is love present in an act of war, where fear is not?
Where fear exists, the presence of God, of love, can not be noticed,
until we change perspective.
So think differently.
See choices
"There is a way through every block."
No matter what!
No matter who says we are less than we are.
No matter tyranny and mayhem that happens.
If we fight we fight FOR love.
We fight for unity and oneness.
There are no separations-
between "us" and "them"
There is no tyranny, that we do not do to ourselves or are also a part of.
To know this is to see oneness and at the same time,
to fight on behalf of God or "truth" would always be and only if in the name of love.
God is ALL love, unconditional, unwavering, absolute LOVE.
God sees no difference between "us" and "them"
At the same time, if we truly work toward love, then it is dissolving the illusion of separateness.
Can war dissolve separation?
Or do we feed separation through war?
When is love present in an act of war, where fear is not?
Where fear exists, the presence of God, of love, can not be noticed,
until we change perspective.
So think differently.
See choices
"There is a way through every block."
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
A taste of my own medicine
I can appreciate one who has given me a dose of my own medicine. The gifts that I bestow, bestow onto me to teach me what I do not yet completely realize within myself, the gifts that I am meant to develop. I gather that this is true for anyone who aligns with Creator and pays attention, believing in the possibility that the unique gifts of one will be seen in "others," in mirrors.
"Sit on my lap" he said. I was skeptical and curious at the same time. Is this man trying to manipulate me or is he really teaching me something? So I sat and felt his strength of his leg and I felt my fear of being led on. My mind going back and forth between safe and unsafe, coaching me to feel my fears and open my heart, as I flooded with judgement, fear and curiosity as to what I might learn. And then at one point, I got to be playful and I told him I just wanted to feel safe, so he encouraged it and I laughed. At the same time, still feeling the fear, the uncertainty.
Then I sat down, away from him, still unsure about whether I got anything out of the session. He told me because I am kinestetic, I would know more later and that the whole purpose of touch was for this. When I left, I felt still a sense of uncertainty and yet, also more free.
Upon awaking this morning, I realized that the experience I had last night was much to do with feeling my own fears, facing the unknown through the kinestitic experience of play, learning to feel my fears of being led on. I imagine this is the feeling of anyone who has been inappropriately touched or left feeling abandoned. The feeling and need for safety and security, at the cost of the aliveness of letting go and surrendering. The need and love of touch, while holding on to the false sense, the illusion of security. As I write, I can still feel the feelings, the fear, which tells me I still have feelings to process...
"Sit on my lap" he said. I was skeptical and curious at the same time. Is this man trying to manipulate me or is he really teaching me something? So I sat and felt his strength of his leg and I felt my fear of being led on. My mind going back and forth between safe and unsafe, coaching me to feel my fears and open my heart, as I flooded with judgement, fear and curiosity as to what I might learn. And then at one point, I got to be playful and I told him I just wanted to feel safe, so he encouraged it and I laughed. At the same time, still feeling the fear, the uncertainty.
Then I sat down, away from him, still unsure about whether I got anything out of the session. He told me because I am kinestetic, I would know more later and that the whole purpose of touch was for this. When I left, I felt still a sense of uncertainty and yet, also more free.
Upon awaking this morning, I realized that the experience I had last night was much to do with feeling my own fears, facing the unknown through the kinestitic experience of play, learning to feel my fears of being led on. I imagine this is the feeling of anyone who has been inappropriately touched or left feeling abandoned. The feeling and need for safety and security, at the cost of the aliveness of letting go and surrendering. The need and love of touch, while holding on to the false sense, the illusion of security. As I write, I can still feel the feelings, the fear, which tells me I still have feelings to process...
Friday, August 5, 2011
THis is a repost about spiritual emergency and possible symptoms for spiritual seekers
This is a repost:
Spiritual Emergence leading to Crisis: Shakti Pad
Shakti Pad: The stage of the Practitioner
Along the path of wisdom, of spiritual development, we meet at Shakti Pad. This is the stage of the practitioner and is "the most crucial, transitional, and challenging of all the stages." This stage determines whether we progress toward mastery. In my textbook "The Aquarian Teacher" Level 1 manual, what is required at this stage is the "ability to choose a goal, fix on a motivation, and consciously commit to a set of values."
This stage of spiritual development is also "the test of power." Where decisions are done out of habit or unconscious patterning, doubt prevails, commitment is lost. The practitioner does not excel past this stage until he gives up what he thinks he knows is best, the desirable, and begins to embrace trusting what he doesn't know. This is why Yogi Bhajan describes this stage to the next as determined by a leap of faith rather than a rope which connects the practitioner directly to the master.
"The experience of this type of decision-making is often unpleasant and frightful. It is beset with uncertainty and often fills the practitioner with doubt. It is a perilous and existential moment. It is an agonizing decision- a question of identity and commitment. The decision is made through deliberate effort to reach the correct perspective of the whole, and to discern the true significance of the decision."
If the practitioner looks at the whole situation and consciously acts from the whole or part of the whole, this period in training will be won with trust, healing, and a greater connection to God or ONE Self. Thus, it is at this period where the test of one's belief in God is most challenged. It may be a dark period and for some cultures or religions, this stage of spiritual development is where we go through the "mystic death," the death of the "false" self or the ego. At this stage, the practitioner struggles with his belief in God and higher intelligence. He may resort to blaming God or other people for his problem and fall back on old ways of doing and being that do not serve him or his higher Self. Maybe he forgets what it is he truly wants and because he is fraught with so many difficulties within himself, he becomes depressed. The practitioner in crisis who finds himself aware of the alternate reality struggles with this reality because he is still afraid and his trust has not yet outgrown his fears. Thus, he clings to what he knows as much as he can. Possibly, the practitioner feels that he is losing his mind and indeed he may. However, the possibility of "no" mind could be a gift, as the practitioner becomes more aware of himself, he finds himself less reactionary and more in trust of the "unknown." His glass is empty and because of this, he can be a great teacher, guide, and lover to all. If he falls predator and prey to fear, however, he could suffer a great deal; his heart will not be interwoven with his decisions. If this is the case, he must always return to balance through actions having to do with heart, that is through self-love and service to others.
At this stage of development, we find that the ego wants to hang on while the ONE self desires to let go. This is perhaps what OSHO describes as schizophrenia. This stage in spiritual development is beset with uncertainty and perhaps can be described by some as "the dark night of the soul."
Some practitioners at this stage do not experience ego-death and may wonder why they should have to. Their ego gets stronger and they become more imbedded in the web of illusion, also known as maya, which is beset with karmic influences and universal laws. The practitioner may blame God or other people because his ego believes they are more deserving and they resent having to have to go through anything at all. They retreat back to old ways of being without seeing the hint of what there is to learn or heal from. The ego does not want to see oneness; however the practitioner in spiritual crisis is being jolted to practice what he himself resists and yet must see. The ego strives for control, certainty and specialness and becomes ignorant, depressed, isolated, and/or split thus leading to even more dissociative thoughts that make him seem crazy to "others," who are also unaware of the spiritual nature of the "problem." The practitioner succumbs to fear and and can not see light; however the light is always there.
I share this information because there doesn't seem to be a lot of talk of "Shakti Pad," or spiritual emergencies. I feel called to share this information, because I know that for some, a spiritual emergency can happen on a unconscious level, meaning without intent of a spiritual emergence or awakening. For those who are on a spiritual quest, perhaps this writing will be a sign to stay on track or an offering of some kind. It is my understanding that some spiritual emergencies are actually "kundalini awakenings" that can lead to greater connection to oneself and God. However, without the awareness or preparation, this experience can lead to crisis. This is why the path of healing is so important and especially at this time. If we aren't on a path of healing from the ego-ic mind, the separated self, we can be unaware of the true nature of dis-ease and dissociative disorders which lead to fatigue and more depression. We must all be on a path of healing to prepare ourselves for the spiritual emergence that is occurring at this time.
I gather this information partly from books as well as from intuition, personal experience and observation.
Spiritual Emergence leading to Crisis: Shakti Pad
Shakti Pad: The stage of the Practitioner
Along the path of wisdom, of spiritual development, we meet at Shakti Pad. This is the stage of the practitioner and is "the most crucial, transitional, and challenging of all the stages." This stage determines whether we progress toward mastery. In my textbook "The Aquarian Teacher" Level 1 manual, what is required at this stage is the "ability to choose a goal, fix on a motivation, and consciously commit to a set of values."
This stage of spiritual development is also "the test of power." Where decisions are done out of habit or unconscious patterning, doubt prevails, commitment is lost. The practitioner does not excel past this stage until he gives up what he thinks he knows is best, the desirable, and begins to embrace trusting what he doesn't know. This is why Yogi Bhajan describes this stage to the next as determined by a leap of faith rather than a rope which connects the practitioner directly to the master.
"The experience of this type of decision-making is often unpleasant and frightful. It is beset with uncertainty and often fills the practitioner with doubt. It is a perilous and existential moment. It is an agonizing decision- a question of identity and commitment. The decision is made through deliberate effort to reach the correct perspective of the whole, and to discern the true significance of the decision."
If the practitioner looks at the whole situation and consciously acts from the whole or part of the whole, this period in training will be won with trust, healing, and a greater connection to God or ONE Self. Thus, it is at this period where the test of one's belief in God is most challenged. It may be a dark period and for some cultures or religions, this stage of spiritual development is where we go through the "mystic death," the death of the "false" self or the ego. At this stage, the practitioner struggles with his belief in God and higher intelligence. He may resort to blaming God or other people for his problem and fall back on old ways of doing and being that do not serve him or his higher Self. Maybe he forgets what it is he truly wants and because he is fraught with so many difficulties within himself, he becomes depressed. The practitioner in crisis who finds himself aware of the alternate reality struggles with this reality because he is still afraid and his trust has not yet outgrown his fears. Thus, he clings to what he knows as much as he can. Possibly, the practitioner feels that he is losing his mind and indeed he may. However, the possibility of "no" mind could be a gift, as the practitioner becomes more aware of himself, he finds himself less reactionary and more in trust of the "unknown." His glass is empty and because of this, he can be a great teacher, guide, and lover to all. If he falls predator and prey to fear, however, he could suffer a great deal; his heart will not be interwoven with his decisions. If this is the case, he must always return to balance through actions having to do with heart, that is through self-love and service to others.
At this stage of development, we find that the ego wants to hang on while the ONE self desires to let go. This is perhaps what OSHO describes as schizophrenia. This stage in spiritual development is beset with uncertainty and perhaps can be described by some as "the dark night of the soul."
Some practitioners at this stage do not experience ego-death and may wonder why they should have to. Their ego gets stronger and they become more imbedded in the web of illusion, also known as maya, which is beset with karmic influences and universal laws. The practitioner may blame God or other people because his ego believes they are more deserving and they resent having to have to go through anything at all. They retreat back to old ways of being without seeing the hint of what there is to learn or heal from. The ego does not want to see oneness; however the practitioner in spiritual crisis is being jolted to practice what he himself resists and yet must see. The ego strives for control, certainty and specialness and becomes ignorant, depressed, isolated, and/or split thus leading to even more dissociative thoughts that make him seem crazy to "others," who are also unaware of the spiritual nature of the "problem." The practitioner succumbs to fear and and can not see light; however the light is always there.
I share this information because there doesn't seem to be a lot of talk of "Shakti Pad," or spiritual emergencies. I feel called to share this information, because I know that for some, a spiritual emergency can happen on a unconscious level, meaning without intent of a spiritual emergence or awakening. For those who are on a spiritual quest, perhaps this writing will be a sign to stay on track or an offering of some kind. It is my understanding that some spiritual emergencies are actually "kundalini awakenings" that can lead to greater connection to oneself and God. However, without the awareness or preparation, this experience can lead to crisis. This is why the path of healing is so important and especially at this time. If we aren't on a path of healing from the ego-ic mind, the separated self, we can be unaware of the true nature of dis-ease and dissociative disorders which lead to fatigue and more depression. We must all be on a path of healing to prepare ourselves for the spiritual emergence that is occurring at this time.
I gather this information partly from books as well as from intuition, personal experience and observation.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Of a philisophical nature: the separation from God
God is unconditional love. Therefore, God would not have us believe that rape and torture are a creation of it. God would not have us believe that all that is done is because we deserve to be punished. God does not want us to suffer and although there are laws in place to which even God does not interfere, God only wants us to awaken to love.
God is all light and love. God would not make us wrong for living or playing in the shadow. God would not have us be punished or suffer. It is us that chooses. We create suffering. Without pain, however, we would not desire to be one with God. Therefore, through pain, we transcend to know God. God holds space. God does not judge what we do and loves us the whole way through.
We create. We create through who we are being- our thinking, aligns with our feelings, our actions, and attitudes. We create things we don't want and God aligns with us through our being. At the same time, God wants us to learn and to awaken to peace, joy, happiness and the truth of who we are- LOVE. Because of this, God evolves as we evolve. God meets us where we are at. If there is something to learn within suffering and pain, we can be clear that it is God, who has complete trust and faith in our awakening.
We are awakening to spirit, subtler realms. If we choose fear over love, hurting and causing pain, we will hurt ourselves. Our ability to stay grounded as we awaken to this experience is to know God as unconditional love, the source of which is within human BEINGNESS. We are to be love- share, forgive, accept, create beauty, inspire.
God is all light and love. God would not make us wrong for living or playing in the shadow. God would not have us be punished or suffer. It is us that chooses. We create suffering. Without pain, however, we would not desire to be one with God. Therefore, through pain, we transcend to know God. God holds space. God does not judge what we do and loves us the whole way through.
We create. We create through who we are being- our thinking, aligns with our feelings, our actions, and attitudes. We create things we don't want and God aligns with us through our being. At the same time, God wants us to learn and to awaken to peace, joy, happiness and the truth of who we are- LOVE. Because of this, God evolves as we evolve. God meets us where we are at. If there is something to learn within suffering and pain, we can be clear that it is God, who has complete trust and faith in our awakening.
We are awakening to spirit, subtler realms. If we choose fear over love, hurting and causing pain, we will hurt ourselves. Our ability to stay grounded as we awaken to this experience is to know God as unconditional love, the source of which is within human BEINGNESS. We are to be love- share, forgive, accept, create beauty, inspire.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tough Love
How do we discern "tough love?"
Since many of us give it and unconsciously do so out of our own lack of trust, when is it appropriate?
Today, my good friend Maui called me wanting console. He was in the hospital, for his wisdom tooth pain/infection(?). He asked me for some wisdom, a good joke, or some light. I perceive that in the past, I would have fed him through his emotions by consoling him to feel better and telling him it will be o.k. Maybe I would have wanted to jump in and somehow take his pain away by feeling sorry for him...
I realize that whatever I would have said would of been loving, so perhaps "tough love" is appropriate when the intention of love is really present. When we are aware of attachment, and yet not afraid to say what might be of service to them or "we"/us. Tough love is without agenda, manipulation, or fear by the giver, that what will be said will be heard with implicit trust for the greater good and if not, will be considered later down the road, perhaps, or who knows. If we give tough love out of fear and manipulation, there is little doubt that it will come later in return, as something to teach "me" about myself...
Conscious that this was possible, reluctant and nervous by how words might land, I reminded my friend of the buddha who said, "pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional." To some ears, this would have been like saying, "suck it up," as so often words are misunderstood. What a relief it is to be met with gratitude and to know that words seemingly tough on the ego, can land as they were intended- as love from the heart. And so perhaps, it is also the request, the asking, by way of an open heart communicating, that makes us able to give and receive "tough" love.
Since many of us give it and unconsciously do so out of our own lack of trust, when is it appropriate?
Today, my good friend Maui called me wanting console. He was in the hospital, for his wisdom tooth pain/infection(?). He asked me for some wisdom, a good joke, or some light. I perceive that in the past, I would have fed him through his emotions by consoling him to feel better and telling him it will be o.k. Maybe I would have wanted to jump in and somehow take his pain away by feeling sorry for him...
I realize that whatever I would have said would of been loving, so perhaps "tough love" is appropriate when the intention of love is really present. When we are aware of attachment, and yet not afraid to say what might be of service to them or "we"/us. Tough love is without agenda, manipulation, or fear by the giver, that what will be said will be heard with implicit trust for the greater good and if not, will be considered later down the road, perhaps, or who knows. If we give tough love out of fear and manipulation, there is little doubt that it will come later in return, as something to teach "me" about myself...
Conscious that this was possible, reluctant and nervous by how words might land, I reminded my friend of the buddha who said, "pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional." To some ears, this would have been like saying, "suck it up," as so often words are misunderstood. What a relief it is to be met with gratitude and to know that words seemingly tough on the ego, can land as they were intended- as love from the heart. And so perhaps, it is also the request, the asking, by way of an open heart communicating, that makes us able to give and receive "tough" love.
Monday, July 25, 2011
To live a life of service...
Surrender.
Lead.
Inspire.
Moving from self-to-service.
I imagine that nearly everyone has dreamt about living a life of service. We want to contribute our life to serve humanity, to serve something greater, for generations to come. Too often, we get bogged down by money and life circumstances to awaken, to know our dreams as possible and perhaps even, a part of our destiny to fulfill. At the root of our futile dreaming is a belief that we are separate from God and therefore, incapable of being greater than we are. We believe we can not contribute, we forget to trust in God's grace, the light that is always seen within even the darkest corners of our being.
In leadership training this weekend, Terces and Matthew Engelhart talked about surrendering to living a life of service. To living a life of "we" rather than "ego" (me, mine, I). They acknowledge that the key to doing this is to stay inspired, to do whatever it takes to generate inspiration from within our being and then to build community that creates and supports the vision, the dream.
"Live your life from the pure inspiration of service..."
What would it be like to completely be of service? What is it "I" would want to give my life to?
Ironically, Martin Luther King has been popping up in my mind lately and today, a turkey, the medicine of self-less service, stopped me while I was driving in Berkeley today! I imagine that spirit is calling me or us to ponder the question longer, to keep our eyes open for what it is that we would want to give our life to.
Quotes by Martin Luther King:
An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
At the center of non-violence stands the principle of love.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Every man must decide whether he will walk in the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Lead.
Inspire.
Moving from self-to-service.
I imagine that nearly everyone has dreamt about living a life of service. We want to contribute our life to serve humanity, to serve something greater, for generations to come. Too often, we get bogged down by money and life circumstances to awaken, to know our dreams as possible and perhaps even, a part of our destiny to fulfill. At the root of our futile dreaming is a belief that we are separate from God and therefore, incapable of being greater than we are. We believe we can not contribute, we forget to trust in God's grace, the light that is always seen within even the darkest corners of our being.
In leadership training this weekend, Terces and Matthew Engelhart talked about surrendering to living a life of service. To living a life of "we" rather than "ego" (me, mine, I). They acknowledge that the key to doing this is to stay inspired, to do whatever it takes to generate inspiration from within our being and then to build community that creates and supports the vision, the dream.
"Live your life from the pure inspiration of service..."
What would it be like to completely be of service? What is it "I" would want to give my life to?
Ironically, Martin Luther King has been popping up in my mind lately and today, a turkey, the medicine of self-less service, stopped me while I was driving in Berkeley today! I imagine that spirit is calling me or us to ponder the question longer, to keep our eyes open for what it is that we would want to give our life to.
Quotes by Martin Luther King:
An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
At the center of non-violence stands the principle of love.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Every man must decide whether he will walk in the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Monday, July 18, 2011
BEING vulnerable
I don't doubt that there are many people in the world, wishing to integrate their spiritual lives into their personal relationships. On one hand we have our desire to love without conditions and on the other hand we struggle with our ego, that feeds on our fear of being vulnerable. Being vulnerable to attack, to judgment, rejection, pain- we find it difficult to accept ourselves and then we forget for a time, perhaps a moment, that we are the source of the infinite, God, unconditional love already!
We are spiritual beings sharing an experience. God sends us gifts so we can learn and grow and practice BEing- communicating, expressing, sharing, thinking, seeing love. We all have a purpose that is creative and unique and in service to our divine nature. When we forget that, we get scared of losing.
The source of our being vulnerable is the gateway to our evolution. If we are not integrating our emotions and thoughts related to being vulnerable into our hearts, then we are more likely to act from our old wounds. While our desire to evolve into the unconditional love that we are takes practice, there will be moments that the ego will want to snap back and pretend to be indifferent or careless. This must be forgiven. Trust!
Practice:
Sit comfortably or lie down. Imagine yourself in a room, where you know no one, and yet you are completely naked. There are people passing you, gossiping, yelling, judging you, objectifying you. You have nothing to clothe you. All you have is trust, love and light protecting you. Breathe into your heart and breathe out love and forgiveness.
May we be reminded of the tools to love under all conditions.
We are spiritual beings sharing an experience. God sends us gifts so we can learn and grow and practice BEing- communicating, expressing, sharing, thinking, seeing love. We all have a purpose that is creative and unique and in service to our divine nature. When we forget that, we get scared of losing.
The source of our being vulnerable is the gateway to our evolution. If we are not integrating our emotions and thoughts related to being vulnerable into our hearts, then we are more likely to act from our old wounds. While our desire to evolve into the unconditional love that we are takes practice, there will be moments that the ego will want to snap back and pretend to be indifferent or careless. This must be forgiven. Trust!
Practice:
Sit comfortably or lie down. Imagine yourself in a room, where you know no one, and yet you are completely naked. There are people passing you, gossiping, yelling, judging you, objectifying you. You have nothing to clothe you. All you have is trust, love and light protecting you. Breathe into your heart and breathe out love and forgiveness.
May we be reminded of the tools to love under all conditions.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Tears are our medicine
Embrace ToTaL experience.
How much are we suppressing within ourselves and each other when we say, "don't" or "should?"
The other day, a son broke a glass and he wanted to cry. His mother said, "DON'T CRY!"
Perhaps the son cries over all his mistakes. Perhaps he has a crying "dis-order," nothing can stop him from crying. Although, I am in no place to judge, is it not our relationship to ourselves that are in conflict? When things happen, we create a story about ourselves that feed a belief that becomes our perpetual reality. Until that relationship is strong, until the love for self is known, perhaps crying is our souls greatest gift. Our job as "other" is to simply hold space and ask questions.
Tears cleanse the soul, especially when we cry with an intention to acknowledge our hurt and let go and release that hurt to God.
I truly believe this is "truth," tears are our medicine.
How much are we suppressing within ourselves and each other when we say, "don't" or "should?"
The other day, a son broke a glass and he wanted to cry. His mother said, "DON'T CRY!"
Perhaps the son cries over all his mistakes. Perhaps he has a crying "dis-order," nothing can stop him from crying. Although, I am in no place to judge, is it not our relationship to ourselves that are in conflict? When things happen, we create a story about ourselves that feed a belief that becomes our perpetual reality. Until that relationship is strong, until the love for self is known, perhaps crying is our souls greatest gift. Our job as "other" is to simply hold space and ask questions.
Tears cleanse the soul, especially when we cry with an intention to acknowledge our hurt and let go and release that hurt to God.
I truly believe this is "truth," tears are our medicine.
Reflections
Can we look in the mirror and see our reflection?
What story are we telling, what view of reality are we accepting?
Do we see our beauty or focus on our worries?
Do we see scarcity? Do we see abundance?
Joy or suffering?
How much is it CHOOSING?
Do we listen to the inner knowing
Do we become afraid of the answer?
Do we fear aloneness, feed shame and the belief we don't matter?
Do we powerfully choose what life has to offer?
Choose. Choose. Choose.
Let us accept what life has to offer.
Let us forgive the ego for trying.
Let us forgive the past
Let go.
Embrace.
Let us embrace the beauty and laughter.
Let us embrace what life has to offer.
And cry and scream and yell in between!
To release.
Always- to ground.
We are grounded.
We are rooted in the earth.
We are all things-
Joy, pain, and sorrow.
We are loving mother earth.
We are accepting.
We are loving.
We are forgiving.
What story are we telling, what view of reality are we accepting?
Do we see our beauty or focus on our worries?
Do we see scarcity? Do we see abundance?
Joy or suffering?
How much is it CHOOSING?
Do we listen to the inner knowing
Do we become afraid of the answer?
Do we fear aloneness, feed shame and the belief we don't matter?
Do we powerfully choose what life has to offer?
Choose. Choose. Choose.
Let us accept what life has to offer.
Let us forgive the ego for trying.
Let us forgive the past
Let go.
Embrace.
Let us embrace the beauty and laughter.
Let us embrace what life has to offer.
And cry and scream and yell in between!
To release.
Always- to ground.
We are grounded.
We are rooted in the earth.
We are all things-
Joy, pain, and sorrow.
We are loving mother earth.
We are accepting.
We are loving.
We are forgiving.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
The Righteous Warrior.
What beautiful gifts/mirrors the universe bestows onto us. Everyone of us is a mirror and can teach us some aspect of ourself, whether it is something we wish to change or cultivate within ourselves, mirrors are expressions of our divine nature expressing itself in myriad forms. Whether it is someone yelling at us, judging us, seemingly not liking us or another whom gifts us with presence, acceptance and forgiveness, they are all gifts not to be denied, but fully received. Perhaps they show us difficulty and challenge to see where we could use healing and perhaps they reflect our most divine nature, our destiny, where we are heading- in the light of God. If we did not have mirrors, we would not be able to see ourselves or learn or grow. Thank Creator! I thank God for it all!
To be righteous is neither right or wrong. To be righteous is to love God, to praise God for everything that can be learned and that we can grow from. To be righteous is not the same as self-righteous. It is nothing of this material plane, not of what we think we see, but of the essence it brings, the beloved, that can be reflected in it all. To see God is to know God.
May it be so always.
Amen.
To be righteous is neither right or wrong. To be righteous is to love God, to praise God for everything that can be learned and that we can grow from. To be righteous is not the same as self-righteous. It is nothing of this material plane, not of what we think we see, but of the essence it brings, the beloved, that can be reflected in it all. To see God is to know God.
May it be so always.
Amen.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Acknowledging an old memory
Yesterday, I was suddenly reminded of the abuse I had done to animals. As I was petting this dog, all of a sudden the memory of how I was once so mean to my animals showed up...
Dear dog and cat.
I realize yesterday that there is an old contract that I must revisit. When I would get angry and frustrated, I would take my anger out on you. When I would get sad, I would want you near me. When I experienced you as being in my way, I would take my frustration out on you. I would yell at you and I was abusive sometimes. I imagine how confusing that would be and I remember how loyal you always were. I want to thank God for how you expressed your love always and despite, how mean I was, I want to thank God for teaching me that you too are a messenger of God. Thank you for loving me and forgiving me. While you were crying for my attention, when I would get mad, it was God, disguised as you, telling me to slow down and to love myself by loving you. Thank you.
I am seeing that this is what we often do when we are angry at ourselves or when we feel separate from God. Instead of receiving God, who is love, we act out aggressively and reject God. We act out toward the things that love us most.
I am relearning love and I know that love would not be abusive. If I feel aggressive, I need only to acknowledge my feelings and let go.
I thank God for revealing to me this memory to heal. While I let go of the shame, I acknowledge the hurt..
LOVE
Dear dog and cat.
I realize yesterday that there is an old contract that I must revisit. When I would get angry and frustrated, I would take my anger out on you. When I would get sad, I would want you near me. When I experienced you as being in my way, I would take my frustration out on you. I would yell at you and I was abusive sometimes. I imagine how confusing that would be and I remember how loyal you always were. I want to thank God for how you expressed your love always and despite, how mean I was, I want to thank God for teaching me that you too are a messenger of God. Thank you for loving me and forgiving me. While you were crying for my attention, when I would get mad, it was God, disguised as you, telling me to slow down and to love myself by loving you. Thank you.
I am seeing that this is what we often do when we are angry at ourselves or when we feel separate from God. Instead of receiving God, who is love, we act out aggressively and reject God. We act out toward the things that love us most.
I am relearning love and I know that love would not be abusive. If I feel aggressive, I need only to acknowledge my feelings and let go.
I thank God for revealing to me this memory to heal. While I let go of the shame, I acknowledge the hurt..
LOVE
Friday, July 1, 2011
The Integration of Light and Dark
The integration of light and dark.
Shame and guilt and fear bind us to our suffering. What would life be like if it were a shameless one; if all of a sudden, we were teleported into another dimension where people didn't feel guilty.
Should the guilty feel guilty, through our own judgement that they are? It wouldn't surprise me, if many people were conflicted by this thought. Isn't it immoral, against God, to shame and make ourselves wrong. If God is unconditional love, wouldn't God forgive the "guilty," as Jesus did before he ascended into heaven.
"Forgive them father, for they no not what they do." ...
If God is unconditional love, perhaps then, it is not God who blames the "guilty" but the ego that makes everything wrong. The ego compares and contrasts. The ego judges to protect itself from FEELING hurt.
When we suffer, instead of feeling the pain of what happened, we blame and project our feelings onto other people. Oftentimes, we don't let go until we have to, only to find that the pain is still there, being reenacted by similar life situations. The body, a teacher told me, holds the subconscious. So perhaps the source of healing is in feeling our pain. Taking responsibility for what are seemingly external circumstances and letting ourselves feel in our body and acknowledge hurt.
I wonder how evolved we would get!
If we integrated the light with the dark through feeling and through conscious awareness without guilt, perhaps we would also be more understanding and compassionate that suffering is suffering, no matter what differences there are. While the cost of stuffing our feelings through guilt and shame serves us on one hand, it also prevents us from feeling joy and free on another.
Personally, I can see within myself, a great deal more love and less attachment, as I look within to forgive and see love, while feeling judgments. At the same time, I still have attachments and life lessons and I still could use coaching from the people around me, thankfully!!! Perhaps, I am writing because I notice the part of me that does not want to feel, or is just not ready to be completely available. The part of me that feels guilty for not listening to myself and makes choices that are still not good for me... While I can say, I feel more, I would still say I'm learning.
I'm grateful to all my teachers- friends, family, mentors, teachers- for helping me to integrate the light.
XOXO!
Shame and guilt and fear bind us to our suffering. What would life be like if it were a shameless one; if all of a sudden, we were teleported into another dimension where people didn't feel guilty.
Should the guilty feel guilty, through our own judgement that they are? It wouldn't surprise me, if many people were conflicted by this thought. Isn't it immoral, against God, to shame and make ourselves wrong. If God is unconditional love, wouldn't God forgive the "guilty," as Jesus did before he ascended into heaven.
"Forgive them father, for they no not what they do." ...
If God is unconditional love, perhaps then, it is not God who blames the "guilty" but the ego that makes everything wrong. The ego compares and contrasts. The ego judges to protect itself from FEELING hurt.
When we suffer, instead of feeling the pain of what happened, we blame and project our feelings onto other people. Oftentimes, we don't let go until we have to, only to find that the pain is still there, being reenacted by similar life situations. The body, a teacher told me, holds the subconscious. So perhaps the source of healing is in feeling our pain. Taking responsibility for what are seemingly external circumstances and letting ourselves feel in our body and acknowledge hurt.
I wonder how evolved we would get!
If we integrated the light with the dark through feeling and through conscious awareness without guilt, perhaps we would also be more understanding and compassionate that suffering is suffering, no matter what differences there are. While the cost of stuffing our feelings through guilt and shame serves us on one hand, it also prevents us from feeling joy and free on another.
Personally, I can see within myself, a great deal more love and less attachment, as I look within to forgive and see love, while feeling judgments. At the same time, I still have attachments and life lessons and I still could use coaching from the people around me, thankfully!!! Perhaps, I am writing because I notice the part of me that does not want to feel, or is just not ready to be completely available. The part of me that feels guilty for not listening to myself and makes choices that are still not good for me... While I can say, I feel more, I would still say I'm learning.
I'm grateful to all my teachers- friends, family, mentors, teachers- for helping me to integrate the light.
XOXO!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
We evolve each other.
How do we evolve each other?
We evolve each other by taking responsibility for our feelings.
We evolve each other by relearning trust.
We evolve each other by coming from a place of possibility.
We evolve each other by creating without evidence or proof.
We evolve each other by letting others make mistakes.
We evolve each other by withholding judgment and not making them real.
We evolve each other by sitting in the uncomfortable and being vulnerable so that others can see themselves.
We evolve each other by responding rather than reacting.
We evolve each other by seeing God within Self.
We evolve each other by choosing to see love.
We evolve each other through partnership and collaboration.
We evolve each other through bringing out our gifts.
We evolve each other by forgiving the ego.
We evolve each other....
We evolve each other by taking responsibility for our feelings.
We evolve each other by relearning trust.
We evolve each other by coming from a place of possibility.
We evolve each other by creating without evidence or proof.
We evolve each other by letting others make mistakes.
We evolve each other by withholding judgment and not making them real.
We evolve each other by sitting in the uncomfortable and being vulnerable so that others can see themselves.
We evolve each other by responding rather than reacting.
We evolve each other by seeing God within Self.
We evolve each other by choosing to see love.
We evolve each other through partnership and collaboration.
We evolve each other through bringing out our gifts.
We evolve each other by forgiving the ego.
We evolve each other....
Saturday, June 25, 2011
I pray.
Prayer.
I pray that my family, friends, myself and all the world, will be free of suffering.
I pray that we all will overcome our difficulties.
That we will merge into oneness.
That we will love on the highest vibration.
I pray that we find the love within ourselves.
I pray that we heal in this life.
I pray that everyone know that they matter.
I pray to be a living example.
I pray. I pray.
I thank God and Love for saving me.
I thank the mirrors that surround me.
I thank the living lessons that I learn from.
I thank the tears that cleanse my soul.
I thank the signs and wisdom from above.
I thank beauty and happiness and joy.
I thank teachers
I thank people willing to listen.
I thank song music and laughter
I thank my blessed life
I thank courage patience and trust
I thank.
I pray.
I pray.
I pray that my family, friends, myself and all the world, will be free of suffering.
I pray that we all will overcome our difficulties.
That we will merge into oneness.
That we will love on the highest vibration.
I pray that we find the love within ourselves.
I pray that we heal in this life.
I pray that everyone know that they matter.
I pray to be a living example.
I pray. I pray.
I thank God and Love for saving me.
I thank the mirrors that surround me.
I thank the living lessons that I learn from.
I thank the tears that cleanse my soul.
I thank the signs and wisdom from above.
I thank beauty and happiness and joy.
I thank teachers
I thank people willing to listen.
I thank song music and laughter
I thank my blessed life
I thank courage patience and trust
I thank.
I pray.
I pray.
Perception and distortion.
There will be people, who feel a sting of anger, resentment,or sadness toward you. They may blame you, project negative emotions at you and create that you are less than you are.
If we listened to everyone's perception of who they think we are however, where would we be? Who would we be without their distorted perceptions of us? Who would we be without our own distorted perceptions and beliefs about us?
A wise teacher said, "No one will ever know you. They will only have their perception of you." Considering that no one has ever walked the same exact path, who can know you better than you know yourself?
In order to live our most authentic self, one thing we have to do is let go of other people's judgment of who they perceive us to be. We have to let go of their judgments, take responsibility for how being judged makes us feel. We have to continue loving and accepting ourselves, the way we are, even when others judge us and create us as less than we are. Consider it a lesson, that perhaps the person who judges is really a mirror of us judging ourself. Therefore, all judgement is an opportunity for us to learn to accept and love ourselves and whoever we are being, however we are showing up in that moment.
"Even though, people may judge me and not like me, I love and accept myself and I will continue to see them as love, dissolving this illusion that I am separate from them."
If we listened to everyone's perception of who they think we are however, where would we be? Who would we be without their distorted perceptions of us? Who would we be without our own distorted perceptions and beliefs about us?
A wise teacher said, "No one will ever know you. They will only have their perception of you." Considering that no one has ever walked the same exact path, who can know you better than you know yourself?
In order to live our most authentic self, one thing we have to do is let go of other people's judgment of who they perceive us to be. We have to let go of their judgments, take responsibility for how being judged makes us feel. We have to continue loving and accepting ourselves, the way we are, even when others judge us and create us as less than we are. Consider it a lesson, that perhaps the person who judges is really a mirror of us judging ourself. Therefore, all judgement is an opportunity for us to learn to accept and love ourselves and whoever we are being, however we are showing up in that moment.
"Even though, people may judge me and not like me, I love and accept myself and I will continue to see them as love, dissolving this illusion that I am separate from them."
Thursday, June 23, 2011
"The Guest House" Poem by Rumi
This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival
A joy, a depression, a meanness
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor
Welcome and entertain them all
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
Every morning a new arrival
A joy, a depression, a meanness
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor
Welcome and entertain them all
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Heaven and Earth meet at the heart.
Heaven and Earth meet at the heart.
My heart is open or at least I think. However, my body is simply a vessel, for which I must feed it good thoughts, food and water. Listen to how "I" feel. To share "my" body with a man in nothing without an open heart and yet, while it is open, the "I" discerns, waiting for a true merging, a merging with the divine, with a man who is full of grace, a man who shares a similar purpose.
I do not know yet what that purpose is but when he visits, it will become clearer. The self will look upon its Self, as a mirror with a purpose to serve, a balance with reason, focus, and clarity and a great love for Self. The merging may take time, but move and act without fear and with intuition...If you are not available, it is for good reason. Trust it.
Until then, work on Self, meaning focus on your own divine nature, your own intuitive knowing. Trust. Trust. Trust. Nothing is without reason.
Work on self is loving self, that is DIVINE. Love yourself. Worship your divine self. Worship your body. And continue following your intuition. Accept. Accept. Accept- yourself!
Where there are set backs, find purpose.
Where there seems to be a block, continue trusting and releasing.
My heart is open or at least I think. However, my body is simply a vessel, for which I must feed it good thoughts, food and water. Listen to how "I" feel. To share "my" body with a man in nothing without an open heart and yet, while it is open, the "I" discerns, waiting for a true merging, a merging with the divine, with a man who is full of grace, a man who shares a similar purpose.
I do not know yet what that purpose is but when he visits, it will become clearer. The self will look upon its Self, as a mirror with a purpose to serve, a balance with reason, focus, and clarity and a great love for Self. The merging may take time, but move and act without fear and with intuition...If you are not available, it is for good reason. Trust it.
Until then, work on Self, meaning focus on your own divine nature, your own intuitive knowing. Trust. Trust. Trust. Nothing is without reason.
Work on self is loving self, that is DIVINE. Love yourself. Worship your divine self. Worship your body. And continue following your intuition. Accept. Accept. Accept- yourself!
Where there are set backs, find purpose.
Where there seems to be a block, continue trusting and releasing.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
When heaven and earth meet.
"When you believe that your abundance and safety originate in the external world- people, things, jobs, money- then you will not only become a "getter," but also a fearful getter, since everything in the outer world of effects is limited and constantly changing." Roger Teel.
As things "I" thought I owned get stolen, I can feel the remnant, fear- a thought- of a "worse" case scenario, a fear of losing more things which I "think" I will need to get. I am letting go, however it is a process and patience and trust is warranted.
Who would do such things as "steal", but the ego, who created the belief that God is separate. It is the ego-ic machine that fears a lack of or doesn't trust that would "steal." At the same time, it is "my" ego that would have me believe that, in the first place, the bike was "mine". Who would have me believe that I own anything but the ego?
This is not to justify theft or make it mean as if it does not matter. Perhaps, I created "my bike" to get stolen, as some would say; yet, this belief summons guilt that I am trying to free myself of. And to think of the person who stole from "me," is not my business either. I ask, "free me from the conditions that would have me believe I know better than they."
Ultimately, we choose constantly and there are always opportunities to forgive, to let go, and to see ONEness. When I was around 10, I was a kleptomaniac! Also, when it comes to my ego, it is a daily practice to be with it, nurture it and love it as a part of me, and without making it real! Still, there are times when I act from fear and I take the easy route, only to realize that it poisoned me with guilt and prevented me from loving myself.
As I opened the Course in Miracles before Sadhana, it reads:
Who can be born again in Christ but him who has forgiven everyone he sees or thinks of or imagines? Who could be set free while he imprisons anyone? A jailer is not free, for he is is bound together with his prisoner. He must be sure that he does not escape, and so he spends his time in keeping watch on him. The bars that limit him becomes the world in which his jailer lives, along with him. And it is on his freedom that the way to liberty depends for both of them.
Therefore, hold no one prisoner. Release instead of bind, for thus are you made free. The way is simple. Every time you feel a stab of anger, realize you hold a sword above your head. And it will fall or be averted as you choose to be condemned or free. Thus does each one who seems to tempt you to be angry represent your savior from the prison house of death. And so you owe him thanks instead of pain." (Course in Miracles, 366)
Could this sword above our head, live the content of guilt and shame that we place upon ourselves and each other, that is the universal law of attraction. If I make "you" guilty, then I in turn am increasing my own guilt by making you or anything wrong. When we cling to and make wrong, we hurt ourselves and punish ourselves with the guilt, shame and fear- that the ego would have us feed upon, increasing the illusion that we are separate from each other, from God and our higher selves.
May true security be found through the realization that in every moment, God is ever-present, as a guide of the unconditional love that is our teacher.
As things "I" thought I owned get stolen, I can feel the remnant, fear- a thought- of a "worse" case scenario, a fear of losing more things which I "think" I will need to get. I am letting go, however it is a process and patience and trust is warranted.
Who would do such things as "steal", but the ego, who created the belief that God is separate. It is the ego-ic machine that fears a lack of or doesn't trust that would "steal." At the same time, it is "my" ego that would have me believe that, in the first place, the bike was "mine". Who would have me believe that I own anything but the ego?
This is not to justify theft or make it mean as if it does not matter. Perhaps, I created "my bike" to get stolen, as some would say; yet, this belief summons guilt that I am trying to free myself of. And to think of the person who stole from "me," is not my business either. I ask, "free me from the conditions that would have me believe I know better than they."
Ultimately, we choose constantly and there are always opportunities to forgive, to let go, and to see ONEness. When I was around 10, I was a kleptomaniac! Also, when it comes to my ego, it is a daily practice to be with it, nurture it and love it as a part of me, and without making it real! Still, there are times when I act from fear and I take the easy route, only to realize that it poisoned me with guilt and prevented me from loving myself.
As I opened the Course in Miracles before Sadhana, it reads:
Who can be born again in Christ but him who has forgiven everyone he sees or thinks of or imagines? Who could be set free while he imprisons anyone? A jailer is not free, for he is is bound together with his prisoner. He must be sure that he does not escape, and so he spends his time in keeping watch on him. The bars that limit him becomes the world in which his jailer lives, along with him. And it is on his freedom that the way to liberty depends for both of them.
Therefore, hold no one prisoner. Release instead of bind, for thus are you made free. The way is simple. Every time you feel a stab of anger, realize you hold a sword above your head. And it will fall or be averted as you choose to be condemned or free. Thus does each one who seems to tempt you to be angry represent your savior from the prison house of death. And so you owe him thanks instead of pain." (Course in Miracles, 366)
Could this sword above our head, live the content of guilt and shame that we place upon ourselves and each other, that is the universal law of attraction. If I make "you" guilty, then I in turn am increasing my own guilt by making you or anything wrong. When we cling to and make wrong, we hurt ourselves and punish ourselves with the guilt, shame and fear- that the ego would have us feed upon, increasing the illusion that we are separate from each other, from God and our higher selves.
May true security be found through the realization that in every moment, God is ever-present, as a guide of the unconditional love that is our teacher.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Demystifying Kundalini
Kundalini Energy is the energy of consciousness. It is much clearer to me that awakening kundalini energy is actually the path of healing and wholeness. It is when the eliminating energy, apana, and the life force energy, prana, meet. Of course, the path of wholeness and healing is not easy or pure bliss. It is sometimes a very difficult journey and many of us get stuck at Shakti Pad, forgetting to trust. Thus, the kundalini energy is both a mixture of prana and apana energies, death, dying, destructive forces, combined with living, learning, and growth: pranic energy. These energies combine and create friction, connecting oneself to greater spiritual experiences.
People talk about kundalini awakenings, which are sudden emergences of a spiritual nature that awaken from within and direct us to wholeness. All yoga is about awakening the kundalini energy. In fact, yoga really means connection to oneself or to God.
Kundalini yoga is a potent practice to awaken the kundalini energy from within, however, the awakening, can occur at any time. With this said, kundalini yoga, as nearly all chi-cultivation or yogic practices, are helpful to prepare oneself for a spiritual awakening. If unprepared, a kundalini awakening can lead to crisis. This really depends on karmic influences and how much a person has addressed or healed from their past.
Some people are weary of kundalini yoga and believe that it is "dangerous." This belief, at least to some degree, is rooted in shame and guilt; that one is to wander into esoteric or hidden realms, is considered by many forbidden or "evil," as if playing with God. Also, some people believe that kundalini yoga is simply very high energy and one must have a strong nervous system to contain all the energy. Although, many great kundalini yoga teachers strive to push their students to the edge of their experience/ego, as all spiritual and non-spiritual practices, one must discern for themselves what their limit is.
One insight is that kundalini yoga, as all spiritual disciplines, if practiced regularly, brings with it levels of awareness, more depth to spiritual realms, including subtle energies that are both "base"/negative and healthy. This awareness of negative, unseen energies does not attract the practitioner or student; rather, the awareness brings new levels and dimensions of healing that would not have otherwise been addressed. This awareness or understanding may be essential for one's healing journey and is a part of the spiritual emergence that is occurring at this time. Therefore, take this as a sign that if one encounters new dimensions of awareness of subtle realms, there is no need to be afraid. Rather than fear the subtle energies or blame anyone or anything for being the source of them, be grateful- for it is perhaps true that many people are unaware of the subtle energies that lie within their electro-magnetic field, the aura. This, at least in part, can broaden the depth, the understanding, and the awareness of what it really takes to heal in this life, discovering more deeply rooted sources of illness that manifests in the body.
People talk about kundalini awakenings, which are sudden emergences of a spiritual nature that awaken from within and direct us to wholeness. All yoga is about awakening the kundalini energy. In fact, yoga really means connection to oneself or to God.
Kundalini yoga is a potent practice to awaken the kundalini energy from within, however, the awakening, can occur at any time. With this said, kundalini yoga, as nearly all chi-cultivation or yogic practices, are helpful to prepare oneself for a spiritual awakening. If unprepared, a kundalini awakening can lead to crisis. This really depends on karmic influences and how much a person has addressed or healed from their past.
Some people are weary of kundalini yoga and believe that it is "dangerous." This belief, at least to some degree, is rooted in shame and guilt; that one is to wander into esoteric or hidden realms, is considered by many forbidden or "evil," as if playing with God. Also, some people believe that kundalini yoga is simply very high energy and one must have a strong nervous system to contain all the energy. Although, many great kundalini yoga teachers strive to push their students to the edge of their experience/ego, as all spiritual and non-spiritual practices, one must discern for themselves what their limit is.
One insight is that kundalini yoga, as all spiritual disciplines, if practiced regularly, brings with it levels of awareness, more depth to spiritual realms, including subtle energies that are both "base"/negative and healthy. This awareness of negative, unseen energies does not attract the practitioner or student; rather, the awareness brings new levels and dimensions of healing that would not have otherwise been addressed. This awareness or understanding may be essential for one's healing journey and is a part of the spiritual emergence that is occurring at this time. Therefore, take this as a sign that if one encounters new dimensions of awareness of subtle realms, there is no need to be afraid. Rather than fear the subtle energies or blame anyone or anything for being the source of them, be grateful- for it is perhaps true that many people are unaware of the subtle energies that lie within their electro-magnetic field, the aura. This, at least in part, can broaden the depth, the understanding, and the awareness of what it really takes to heal in this life, discovering more deeply rooted sources of illness that manifests in the body.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Raising the standards in energy cleansing/boundaries
Apparently, I need to raise my standards in creating energy boundaries and releasing other energies from my space, says Clairvoyant Reader, Adrienne Fodor. They have been affecting my health.
I am grateful. At first, I was concerned because I haven't been practicing healing "others" on an emotional level very much and it had been partly due to feeling fatigue. I wondered what was "wrong" with me and why I didn't have energy and suspected it was due to a kidney deficiency. Now I realize I need to do more work on myself before I enter this field, becoming more keen in the LISTENING and RELEASING energies from my space. For example, if I am thinking about someone a lot, who is not even in my life, perhaps they are in my physic field. Not them so much as their energy. Also, if some experience is triggering an old story or belief that is not serving me, then I need to go back and release that energy as well.
It is possible for energies to be with us, even without their bodies and probably without their awareness as well. If someone is being negative- in my perception, which is pretty much always based on the filters of my past experiences and beliefs, then it is possible for that energy to affect me. Therefore, I need to create an energy boundary between me and that energy. Already I was doing this and noticing an effect, however not regularly. Ironically, when my friend said that I need to protect my back, I was reminded of how effective it has been to imagine a white light between my kidneys and my "ancestors." I had been suspecting these "ancestors" were messing with my kidneys, as I could intuit or "see" them in my space as doing so. Even still, I have had a difficult time being aggressive and I am still learning that although I have compassion for them and know they want or need healing/love, it is not my job, especially when they themselves do not seek it.
Raising standards for my health is always a good idea. While I would consider myself a pretty health conscious person, there have been some things, I would just let slip and not create time for. I believe spirit is guiding me to more optimal health and giving me a sign to be in more rhythm with nature and learn more about my body.
so yesterday, after my reading, I took a bath in aromatic salts and I took time to release energies, including deep breathing for 15 minutes. I did this partly by naming the energies that were affecting me and simply saying, I release your energy. I also realized that even though, I have done releasing before on particular energies, it may take time and that perhaps, there is still somewhere in my past, a memory that has not been cleared that I need to address, So, it was helpful to remember that a particular energy that sticks around me was also an energy from my childhood. As I released that as well, I got to see my inner child once again and I just held her. How beautiful and precious she is! Toward the end of deep breathing, I started hitting my chest and using sound to release the energy. It's amazing how much anger came into my memory and then suddenly, a burst of tears released, for which I did not expect.
I am divinely protected by angels who bless me with guidance and fill me with love and light.
I am grateful. At first, I was concerned because I haven't been practicing healing "others" on an emotional level very much and it had been partly due to feeling fatigue. I wondered what was "wrong" with me and why I didn't have energy and suspected it was due to a kidney deficiency. Now I realize I need to do more work on myself before I enter this field, becoming more keen in the LISTENING and RELEASING energies from my space. For example, if I am thinking about someone a lot, who is not even in my life, perhaps they are in my physic field. Not them so much as their energy. Also, if some experience is triggering an old story or belief that is not serving me, then I need to go back and release that energy as well.
It is possible for energies to be with us, even without their bodies and probably without their awareness as well. If someone is being negative- in my perception, which is pretty much always based on the filters of my past experiences and beliefs, then it is possible for that energy to affect me. Therefore, I need to create an energy boundary between me and that energy. Already I was doing this and noticing an effect, however not regularly. Ironically, when my friend said that I need to protect my back, I was reminded of how effective it has been to imagine a white light between my kidneys and my "ancestors." I had been suspecting these "ancestors" were messing with my kidneys, as I could intuit or "see" them in my space as doing so. Even still, I have had a difficult time being aggressive and I am still learning that although I have compassion for them and know they want or need healing/love, it is not my job, especially when they themselves do not seek it.
Raising standards for my health is always a good idea. While I would consider myself a pretty health conscious person, there have been some things, I would just let slip and not create time for. I believe spirit is guiding me to more optimal health and giving me a sign to be in more rhythm with nature and learn more about my body.
so yesterday, after my reading, I took a bath in aromatic salts and I took time to release energies, including deep breathing for 15 minutes. I did this partly by naming the energies that were affecting me and simply saying, I release your energy. I also realized that even though, I have done releasing before on particular energies, it may take time and that perhaps, there is still somewhere in my past, a memory that has not been cleared that I need to address, So, it was helpful to remember that a particular energy that sticks around me was also an energy from my childhood. As I released that as well, I got to see my inner child once again and I just held her. How beautiful and precious she is! Toward the end of deep breathing, I started hitting my chest and using sound to release the energy. It's amazing how much anger came into my memory and then suddenly, a burst of tears released, for which I did not expect.
I am divinely protected by angels who bless me with guidance and fill me with love and light.
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